TOPIC: Captains Log

Told a librarian earlier her hair was pretty. She was very happy.

Also around the same time i saw an extremely cute girl with a great ass studying down the hall. I seriously sat around for probly 20 minutes trying to get the courage to go over and just do a " im really shy but just wanted to come tell you your really pretty", wish her a nice day and then eject. Nope... i pussied out. The one half assed excuse i have is that she was at the end of a very long hall way and she would have seen me coming from a 100 ft away. This made it a lot worse... if there was somewhere where i could have swooped in unexpectedly this would have made it atleast a little easier.

Still need to do one more comliment today (atleast).

Also on a side note i might be taking a solo road trip to New york this weekend. Its still doubtful but im beyond excited for this. Really hope it happens.

Captain Ramius wrote: Told a librarian earlier her hair was pretty. She was very happy.

Also around the same time i saw an extremely cute girl with a great ass studying down the hall. I seriously sat around for probly 20 minutes trying to get the courage to go over and just do a " im really shy but just wanted to come tell you your really pretty", wish her a nice day and then eject. Nope... i pussied out. The one half assed excuse i have is that she was at the end of a very long hall way and she would have seen me coming from a 100 ft away. This made it a lot worse... if there was somewhere where i could have swooped in unexpectedly this would have made it atleast a little easier.

Still need to do one more comliment today (atleast).

Also on a side note i might be taking a solo road trip to New york this weekend. Its still doubtful but im beyond excited for this. Really hope it happens.

need to check out my local library again asap

I fell through again yesterday and didnt do my compliments so ill start over. But i did socialize with my parents for awhile which was nice actually.

some notes

- I lifted weights for the first time in awhile last night and i felt incredible afterwards. Going to really focus on strength training more.
- sex drive and ED continue to improve ( this is huge)
- getting some prospects from POF the last two days and one girl wants me to come over ( shes about a 6 ). very exciting.
- my teeth whitening strips are starting to make a huge difference. My overall looks are looking a lot better compared to a week ago. Still a ton of room for improvement which is exciting as fuck.


will keep this updated.

Ok heres the final part of my day yesterday

I go home and change into some clothes for yoga in a couple hours around 4:55. Put on some sweat pants over them and decide to go back to meijer ( a shopping center in michigan) to look for some cute/ hot girls to compliment ( and just talk to if things feel right ).

Get to meijer and right when i walk in near the customer service area i see a really cute girl waiting. I was literally about to walk right in front of her and tell her " how cute " she was. But i noticed another equally cute girl right next to her (they werent friends). I ended up bailing and not saying anything. I honestly wish i could have said something (or talked to ) both of them. Im saying this with a 100% honesty i wasnt afraid to say something to either of them but it was like i didnt wanna compliment one girl and not say something to the other one. But at the same time they would have both looked at each other weird right when i left. Paralysis by analysis...

Anyways it wasnt the end of the world and i kept walking.

I get around the book section and i notice this 5ft probly 105 -110 lb adorable girl.

Me: " excuse me.. " Her: (looks at me sort of surprised) " yes? " Me: " I just wanted to say you are so cute " Her: (gets a big smile) " oh my gosh thank you! "
She then sticks out her hand and says her name is jessica and i shake it telling her mine. Im instantly excited and she seems very excited. I then notice ive actually seen this girl before at the library (with her boyfriend). I tell her this and she explains they just broke up and he moved out (nice). She says shes buying new things for the apartment (because the ex-B took all of his stuff) and when i look at her cart i see that this is true. There was lots of cleaning products, a lamp, new blanket, food etc.

We talk for awhile about her upcoming cruise vacation and how her halloween was. The way shes looking at me is amazing and i literally started getting hard right there. Had to actually calm myself down because i had fucking sweat pants on lol.. I ask how old she is and she says 20. Then i say " how old do you think i am? "
She guesses 21. After i tell her im 27 my ego is boosted slightly ( maxing out looks boys ) .
She then asks me if i know where the fans are as she needs to get one. It dawns on me i know exactly where the fans are and i tell her ill show her. And lead her to the fans while i ask her questions about being a vegan ( shes newly vegan ).
After she grabs her fan we make some more short banter and i realize things are going really well and i need to wrap it up and take her number. At this point i was positive that was going to happen. I literally pull out my phone and think of chris's videos. YEAH CHRIS THANK YOU BRO. And i say " you know what your really cool let me take your number. Ill text you sometime " . As im getting out my phone im explaining how i have to go get ready for yoga class. Shes very surprised i do yoga and she actually says she would like to do it sometime. I give her a cocky grin and say " ha you wanna come to class with me sometime? " she says she does and proceeds to start telling me her number before im even ready (eager girl, calm yourself ). I then take her # and say this is awesome and that i really never do this kind of stuff ( i know i really shouldnt have said that but i said it in a calm voice so i dont think it hurt me ). Then i ask if i can get a hug before i leave to which she replies " of course! i love hugs " We hug and i say ill text her soon. The way she looked when i left her she seemed stunned. What an incredible feeling....

So there it is, my first # pull by cold approach. I still question if this counts as cold approach because honestly it seemed like she kinda picked me up. Actually im certain its because she stuck out her hand and introduced herself. Honestly it was so easy and harmless though. Why the fuck do we make this such a big deal?

Ive texted her a little bit this morning but its been extremely brief. I have no clue whats going to happen but everything is going smooth so far. Im going into this with no expectations (this attitude usually ends up with me being satisfied) .

I slept like shit last night but im going to try and do a lot more compliments today and REALLY try to atleast force conversations when i see an opening. Not going to start going crazy yet and asking for numbers all the time. Im honestly still in shell shock over yesterday lol .


once again thank you GLL

Only did one compliment last night but overall had a very productive day. I saw an extremely cute girl at meijer pretty far away getting ready to buy her groceries. I was almost out the front door before i said " fuck this " and turned around and walked by her really close and said " you look really nice " while giving her close eye contact. She smiled and said thank you.

Today has been good so far. I went to work with my dad to change a guys water heater (dad owns his own plumbing company). This old guy ended up being really cool and also had a very nice big house. Just not feeling like typing up too much but i basically asked a lot of questions and was able to actually enjoy having a conversation with a stranger.

something i noticed... I need to get my personality across early to people that im a good person. Im not a person who smiles a lot naturally and my eyes can be pretty intense (women have always loved my eyes). It seemed like the guy might have been... intimidated? By me for the first 15-20 minutes. I started asking him questions about how he made his own wine etc and he really started to warm up to me. I know our interaction was just an everyday thing for most people but it was a big step for me. I think my dad noticed it as well (my parents know pretty much everything about my history. we talk a lot).

I also said Hi to this really cute girl working at the library who ive never seen before. I made sure to give her solid eye contact. She smiled and said " Hi how are you doing " to which i said " im great how are you?" (kept eye contact the whole time) Her: " great '' . She ended up doing that hair thing that girls do when they like a guy. I want to talk to her but really need to eat something. I know thats really just an excuse but whatever. Things are feeling great.

Oh, and the NAC ive been taking seems to be really making a difference with anxiety. Still need more time with it but im feeling very encouraged.

Any update with your homework assignment? I think that would help you out a lot (really no excuse to not record a vlog if your serious about this)

-told a middle aged asian lady she looked really nice who was looking at vitamin supplements. She really did look great besides her actual face lol. She had a slender skinny body with amazing hair and her outfit looked really great on her. Me: " you look really nice " Her: (gets a big smile and eyes widen) " oh thank you " Me: " yeah you look great, really " Her: " oh thank you, thank you ( with super asian accent ) ". I wasnt sure if it was just asian culture hospitality but she seemed really into me. Like i said her face wasnt the best but i woulda fucked the shit out of her.

- saw a hot older lady shopping. She was actually probly about an 8. Great face, outfit, hair and she had probly double D fake breats. I said she looked really nice to which she said thank you in a surprised voice and seemed to be sizing me up. Im thinking she gets hit on all the time. I was pretty close to her and when we made eye contact i got instantly nervous, she intimidated me. She then looked away quickly as she kept walking. Fail


Whatever you do, next time this happens dont leave. Fuck your ego and go all out ;screw embarrassment or whatever that u are scared of.

Ronin I don't own a computer right now. Got rid of it months ago because I spent way too much time in my house wasting time on it. I'm on a phone right now ( not my phone. I got blocked the internet on my phone for the same reason). I really want to make a vlog in the future but only when my sex life is back on track. But I can promise you things are much better than when I first started this log. I'm hanging out with one girl from pof this week and Its 50/50 if me and the girl who gave me her number will also hang out. Things are going good but need to keep the momentum going. Also I did 5 compliments yesterday but like I said I can't write them all up right now.

quick updates

- ive been doing 24 hour intermittent fasts followed by one huge dinner the last 4 days in a row and its making me stressed out as fuck, but im losing a ton of body fat and my dick looks fatter than it has in a long time. Today will be my last day doing this and then ill eat normally for a few days.

- stomach vacuums + high rep air squats + core strength + low body fat = boners. My ED was completely gone yesterday and i had a rock solid boner while fucking my fleshlight for a solid 20 minutes. And i mean some hardcore fucking... Its literally been months since this has happened. Stomach vacuums seem to be my missing ingredient. Going to keep doing them everyday for awhile and see if i keep progressing.

- Right now im focusing on improving my ED and sex drive as my short term #1 goal. Improving social skills is still my main goal but for the time being getting my ED cured is the bigger priority. When my dick is pretty much dead and has no feeling im just flat out depressed. Good thing is the way things are looking this shouldnt take much longer and then from there its just maintenance.

- The girl who gave me her # has flake city written all over her which is pretty shitty since she seemed so into me when we met. I tryed to get her to meetup over the weekend but no dice. Also tryed to set something up for the week but shes being evasive. I want to just delete her number but ill try and build some comfort and maybe something will happen. At this point im moving on.

- Im going to do my best to severly cut down on my kratom use. My self control when it comes to happy hippo kratom is not the best. The shits simply too good ! Ive only had my order for a week now but each dose i take seems to increase slightly. So far today im taking only very tiny doses (im guessing maybe a gram and a half since i just eye ball it). My aroma obviously hasnt been great today but im still feeling all the productive effects so its all good.

- momentum and consistency continues to be my biggest factor in everything i do. Small daily goals...

- I cannot drink caffeine for the life of me. Everytime i try to do it i end up being a mess of anxiety. Im having some today for the fasting but this will serious be my last day for awhile. Cannot handle this shit.


did my compliments saturday and sunday. Going to write this up quick
saturday
- told black girl with a fat ass her boots were nice. She said thank you in a very sexy voice and smile.
-told cashier she had nice eyes while she looked at me in almost shock and said thanks.
- told two extremely cute (hip hop?) looking girls they were both really cute. My voice ended up cracking and sounding funny and they both said thanks but there tone of voice said " oh god is this weirdo going to hit on us? ". Groups of girls continue to intimidate me.
-told some punk looking girl in a crazy outfit her hair was cool.

sunday
-told cute employee at walmart she was really pretty. She sort of giggled as she said thanks (this is good)
-told hippy looking chick she had awesome dreads. she smiled and said thanks.

theres a lot on my mind but ill end it here for now.

Hanging out with a girl from POF wednesday. Not going to get too into detail but im honestly just seeing this girl as a friend and she kind of knows it. I know that sounds like some homo shit but ive actually messaged her for awhile and shes a really cool girl. Honestly though im not 100% confident ill be able to control myself but well see. Either way this is a good thing.

today
- told an old guy his leather jacket was cool.
- told this cute girl she looked nice. She just gave me a bitchy (maybe nervous?) look and just kept walking.
- as i was walking out of the store i saw this smoking hot girl get out of a car and start walking towards the front door while texting. I said she looked nice but she didnt even glance up. Part of me thinks maybe she didnt hear but she seems like she probly gets creeped on almost daily so probly just a bitch sheild.

this was the first two times any chick hasnt responded positivley so that was interesting. The cool thing is i really didnt give a shit at all. Also im not hesitating as much lately and just getting the fuck in there. I know im just complimenting and theres really no pressure but this is a good sign.

Still havent eaten yet today and i have an unusual amount of energy and no real hunger yet. Going to do some core strengthening, stomach vacuums and cold shower when i get home.

Also i hit the numbers hard as hell earlier on POF and also made a new meetme account and went crazy on there as well. Going to check them both right now.

Overall the days been productive so far but still a lot i need to do. Good shit !

at the Dog park yesterday, made this funny observational comment that led to a little small-talk with a woman, she looked like in her 30's, still decent looking, she had red-hair and was wearing turquoise yoga pants, so I said Hey how's it going, she responded back, and I said are you supposed be dressed as Ariel from The Little Mermaid? and she laughed and said "no but your not the first guy to say that to me", and she even said that other guys made the comment on her shoes which were purple, and it reminded me on how Ariel wore purple sea-shells to cover her breasts, and then I made a comment on how it doesn't really apply since your breasts are upwards instead of downwards, made her kind of giggle a bit, lol.

Also saw this hot blonde with nice boots sitting on the bench so I went to sit with her, like a person-length apart, so I told her how I like those boots and she smiled, said thanks, so I continued by saying that those boots remind me of the old Jessica Simpson song "these boots are made for walkin", and she smiled quite, big, lol, that lead to a conversation.