TOPIC: Former girlfriend needs "To Grow" WTF?

What's up guys? I'm in a weird spot that's messing with me on a strangely deep level. I've been in a relationship since January with the girl I've had a crush on since I was 12 (Thanks to this site and the Book of Pook). 98 lbs and half of it was her boobs. The first half of the relationship was the stuff of dreams. Hardcore guy Disney. I took her anal virginity and she loved it, I started "training" her in the bedroom, she'd be the sweetest girl I've ever met and things were all around bitchin in every way.

She got extremely baby hungry, told me she wanted to marry me someday and have a kid together. I told her "No, maybe someday if things work out right. We're in our mid 20's, you don't own a car, my business is just becoming cash flow positive, and we work at Dominos." (I drive, she makes $10 an hour and I practically saved her from being homeless.)

She got extremely emotional and kind of bitchy over nothing the past few weeks. Last week she drops on me "I'm not ready for a relationship" (even though she cried and asked me for one, we were fuckbuddies for the first 2 months. I picked her). Said some stuff about how she "needs to grow."

I what world does a supportive person hinder one's personal development? I know I have hardcore relationship oneitis, she's clearly insane, everyone I talk about this to asks "..is she on drugs?" and I know I'm "better off." I feel used, betrayed, and abandoned on such a deep level I didn't know I could go here. I let my walls down I built after my ex fiance cheated on me and I feel wronged. I still have options, I just have this guilty feeling that I'd be cheating on her if I fucked any of them.

Kratom has been a godsend. I've got a kilo of red maeng da and I've been downing about an oz a day just to live with this.
Any advice? I really want that beginning part of the relationship back but I'm probably better off retaining her as a friend with benefits (which she's interested in..) I read the entirity of Loser2Winner yesterday and I think I know where I fucked up with the power split. Maybe I didn't though and she's just nuts.

Any words of advice? This is really bothering me. I've eaten 3 times in 7 days.

Norski wrote:
She got extremely baby hungry, told me she wanted to marry me someday and have a kid together. I told her "No, maybe someday if things work out right. We're in our mid 20's, you don't own a car, my business is just becoming cash flow positive, and we work at Dominos." (I drive, she makes $10 an hour and I practically saved her from being homeless.)

Well, she clearly wants to settle down, you don't.

She got extremely emotional and kind of bitchy over nothing the past few weeks. Last week she drops on me "I'm not ready for a relationship" (even though she cried and asked me for one, we were fuckbuddies for the first 2 months. I picked her). Said some stuff about how she "needs to grow."

I what world does a supportive person hinder one's personal development?

Don't take it literally. She wants a stable long term relationship, you don't. She just wants someone to settle with long-term right now, and you're not willing to do it. So she's going to look for someone else

I know I have hardcore relationship oneitis, she's clearly insane, everyone I talk about this to asks "..is she on drugs?"

There's your problem.

Any advice? I really want that beginning part of the relationship back but I'm probably better off retaining her as a friend with benefits (which she's interested in..) I read the entirity of Loser2Winner yesterday and I think I know where I fucked up with the power split. Maybe I didn't though and she's just nuts.

You probably did nothing wrong. Women won't last in your life forever, unless you plan to marry, and even then ... Just enjoy it while it lasts.

My only advice is this :

1) get ready for her to move on, it will happen eventually
2) bang her while you still can
3) start approaching other girls
4) after she leaves you wait some years until she is out of a relationship, then maybe bang again

No trick that will bring the magic completely back. What happened happened. Now be a man and deal with reality. The sooner you detach yourself from her and start approaching other girls the better you'll be. The best time to do it is now.

Just stop trying to look for magic solutions and accept reality. Time to get out of the comfort zone and back in the game.

You need more girls in your life. Your lack of experience with women and life in general is hindering you from seeing how wrong this girl is for you.

She wants kids. You don't. She wants a relationship. You don't. You two want different things and are incompatible and that's okay.

There is nothing wrong with you. Just move on and find yourself another girl.

Went to talk to her yesterday for closure and found out the reason she left is she cheated on me. She's been banging dipshits from work, one of which includes a criminal who sells meth/heroin, has openly raped women, and admittedly fucked a 14 yearold (he's 26).

I thought something was up with how she broke up with me. Turns out I was right. Time to go on a fuck spree with random 19 yearolds for a while.

I swear man, just don't think it's your fault!