TOPIC: Back to life - from 70 to 0 to 100.

Gonna smile at some girls tomorrow and try to win the eye contact game a few times. Then ask for the time and maybe a few real approaches. I wont waste my time again asking for time 30 times a day and going home after that. But I feel like I need a day to ease back into it. Gonna succeed this time.
Club on Saturday.

I think surroundings with high competition where the judgement of girls is ONLY based on looks (i.e. clubs) are bad for me.
House parties are optimal I think, because status, swag, social freedom, money etc are also factors there.


Little change of the plan:
Now: focus on looksmaxxing and do a bit of approaching (no longer than 2 weeks max)
In 2 weeks: focus on approaching and only do a bit of looksmaxxing.

Reason: I think I can still climb 1 point up in the looks scale. But I don't want to start mental masturbation like the Blocked by administrator guys.

I'm still alive, doing the last 2 days of looksmaxxing. I added a lot to my looksmaxxing routine, but I can't expect major changes, because I didn't have major problems in the first place. Only plastic surgeries would change a bit more, but also not much. I would need several small surgeries to go 1-2 points up, instead of one large surgerey, because I'm not deformed.

After this weekend I'm definitely going to focus on approaching and social life and write here daily again. Yesterday I was in a bar with my two oldest friends. No approaches, but going out is much better than basement dwelling. Furthermore it was a spontaneous trip and initiated by me.

Fuark. After spending way too much time on Blocked by administrator I was even scared to approach girls via facebook/snapchat.
2 years ago I felt entitled to only write with the 5-10% best looking girls and now it has come to this haha. Anyways I'm back in the game after doing every single thing to make the most out of my looks except surgery. I have an appointment for under eye fillers next week.


Since I was kinda afraid to do this I'm also counting the online approaches:

#1: approached the girl I kissed at the beginning of this year via snapchat - no answer, but it could be that she thought I sent this snap to everyone... I'd better write her on whatsapp next time.

#2: approached girl I met 4 times now but didn't make out with (lol) via snapchat. Gonna ask her tomorrow to hang out soon.


Club tomorrow. Goals: don't get hammered. try new shoe lifts. 5 approaches.

I'm drawing sth on my hand now to remind me to ALWAYS ask the question "What is the most productive thing I can do right now?".

To make it short: I didn't go out. I even told my friend I was sick :/ I think I have that avoidant personality disorder thing. Everytime I have a date or something, I really look forward to it, even the day before it I'm happy, but when the day comes, I'd rather stay at home.
But thats only about 40% of the reason I didn't go out. The other 60% are justified, because of this:
My math of going out:
- 20 min bicycle in the dark (yesterday in the rain)
- 5 € train ticket
- 2 hours in train alone (there and back)
- 10-15€ club entrance
- 0-7 approaches (10 was my best) --> NO number to date!
- driving home alone (I meet with my friends at the club, they live in the city)

I don't know..... even if I don't have to drive alone it's hard. And I don't really want to move out, because it would cost 400€ per month.. A compromise would be to sleep at my friends house when going out, but thats not always possible.
Maybe, I'll share a one-person-apartment with 3 friends starting in summer.


At least I arranged a date next Friday.

Week in Review


Focus: - Write here everyday ---> 2/7

Daily:

plan the day with Cal Newport's simple time management system --> 2/7 (the 2 days where I also posted here)
write on GLL forum --> 2/7 (I need to include that in my day's schedule)
2x 20 mins meditation --> 0/7 (dropped. Doesn't help achieving a goal right now. Will start again when studying again.)


Weekly:

read this post again CHECK
participate in sweepstakes. full srs takes only a few minutes CHECK
review of the week CHECK
update training log CHECK
update my getting things done list CHECK
20 mins LISS cardio or 40 min walks on off days (i.e. 3-4 times/week) CHECK
5 approaches. If I don't make it, I have to fetch them later, so no matter what I'll do at least 260 per year 2/5 (at least 1 date planned.....)
go through my looksmaxing routine CHECK


Monthly:

take ALL measurements and make photos of my body progress and save them on USB stick --> planned for next week
read all my notes (from books, GLL etc) again ---> in 2 weeks


Other:

watch more series in english with subtitles --> watched nothing at all. Isn't even important, speaking english would be better.
watch Californication again to get top tier swag
establish new habit of asking myself every second if what I'm currently doing will contribute to a great future. 100% productive? Act as if I'm my own personal coach. --> painted something on my finger to remind me of this. Works a bit.
Be happy and optimistic and look for the positive in every situation --> 50/50, got better at the end of the week
only active reading, i.e. writing the most important points into my folder CHECK


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Since looksmaxxing is finished I don't have an excuse to not approach anymore. Only going to a night club every weekend wouldn't be worth it money/time/energy/everything else -wise. I need to take some WORSE pictures of me this week for facebook game, because the pictures I have now look too good. Not photoshopped, but good lightning and angles. Makes me look tall, which disappoints girls when they see me IRL. Worst feeling ever if I notice this.


Tasks for the week:
- Clean terrarium
- send mail to grandma
- go for a kiss close on the date at friday
- take/search for more close to reality pictures
- research into possibilities to increase height
- appointment for new blood work
- appointment, bc of slight back pain
- buy one piece of clothing that fits PERFECTLY (for xmas)
- sent links of my wishlist for xmas to parents
- buy xmas parents for family
- go to a club on thursday with wing and do 10 approaches


Let's go.

Nothing new today, I'm just replying to create the new habit..
Researchen on possibilities of getting a better jawline and found out that a good surgeon works in berlin. Tomorrow I'm going to make an appointment.

I'm sick of being at home and alone, even though 90% of the time I'm doing sth productive. So I guess I can't waste my time doing col approaching, because now I don't even have a better use for my time.

I'm going to the gym earlier today and to an other gym in the city. Later I'm going shopping and want to focus on making looong eye contact with girls. I'm really curious which feedback I'll get since I don't know anymore where on the looks scale I am. Gonna ask 2 girls for the time too.

I was SO close to approaching! I swear I will have approached by monday evening (or sunday if shops are open).
The prospect of pain must be so big that I can't stand it. If there's pain, but its not bad enough to take action, nothing will change (see Chris' great article if his lonely saturday nights). That's why I'm going to donate 1000 euro if I don't approach at least one girl on monday.

Bought to pieces of clothing that fit perfectly today, which was also a goal of this week. Ar the same time I've done some eye contact duels.

I've also decided on loosing my virginity in a brothel. But not for the sake of loosing my virginity and telling my friends I've lost it normally, but just to get the experience.


Goals for december 21st - 23rd:
- 15 approaches
- loose virginity

After that:
- cold approaching on the 27th, 28th and 30th
- club game on 29th and new years eve
- besides: tinder and facebook

Focus: - Write here everyday ---> 4/7

Daily:

plan the day with Cal Newport's simple time management system ---> 3/7
write on GLL forum ---> 4/7


Weekly:

read this post again CHECK
participate in sweepstakes. full srs takes only a few minutes CHECK
review of the week CHECK
update training log this evening
update my getting things done list this evening
20 mins LISS cardio or 40 min walks on off days (i.e. 3-4 times/week) CHECK
5 approaches. If I don't make it, I have to fetch them later, so no matter what I'll do at least 260 per year fail
go through my looksmaxing routine this evening


Tasks for the week:
- Clean terrarium
- take/search for more close to reality pictures
- research into possibilities to increase height
- appointment for new blood work
- appointment with maxfac
- buy xmas parents for family
- lose virginity in brothel
- 15 approaches til xmas, mainly daygame, but maybe also nightgame




Tomorrow is the big day.

Fuck. Christmas and walking around doing 0 approaches make me sad.

There's nothing that's harder than daygame for me now - except maybe getting tortured, but I'm not sure (where's the difference?) I've been reading too much on the internet the past months, which lowered my self esteem to the lowest point ever so I think I have to start with night game again. But sometime I will have to learn daygame as it would fit MUCH better into a day. Nightgame destroys the whole next day for me, because of my shitty logistics - I'm home 7 am...

Man, I just want a cute gf to cuddle with... At least for now, I really don't need to be a slayer.
I'll definetely go to a club tomorrow. No excuses.

I think I'll have to do all 4 kinds of game to maximize my success - online, day, social circle and night. But I want to find out, which one is the best for now to allocate my time correctly.

1. Daygame
+ fits into the day nicely
+ no competition
- low success rate
- takes most time
- hardest

2. Online
+ fits even better into the day
+ easy
+ good success rate on facebook
- worst success rate of all kinds of game, bc even below average looking girls feel entitled to get the top 15% boys
- makes me wanna tear my hair out, if I write with a girl, everything goes well, but suddenly she doesn't answer anymore

3. Social circle
+ best for getting a gf
+ seems more natural, thats how "normal" guys get laid
- I don't know anyone who is introduced to new girls regularly enough through social circle ( but becoming a master of networking is a goal of mine anyway, so...)

4. Night game
+ girls want to get approached
+ seems natural
+ can approach >5 goodlooking girls in like 25 minutes easily
- high competition
- costs money
- next day is totally screwed


I can easily do 10 approaches or more on one evening. Half a year ago, I managed to approach 3-6 regularly, 10 was my record. SO I guess I have to make going to a club one time per week and doing my 10 approaches there a habit.

BREAKTHROUGH.
Really nothing short of a breakthrough and it came just at the right time. Now I can enjoy christmas.

What happened?

- since I woke up yesterday good excuses to not go to the club popped up in my head every minute
- despite that I managed to go out
- had suicidal mood before club
- told my buddy I'm going to change my mood from one second to other and it worked! LOL.
- drank only 100ml vodka
- when I was in the club I started approaching immediately (--> if I hesitate I masturbate!)
- first girl was a HB9 and I just turned her around and left. That's AWESOME for warming up, because you can't get rejected, but start interacting with women
- accidentally approached a lesbian pair. Made me laugh and increased my mood even more.
- started dancing with an asian girl, then grinding and then I just turned her around and we kissed for about 5 mins
- BOOOOOM, went to the smoker area with my buddy to celebrate
- went back and approached a few more girls, most without much anxiety, cause I felt awesome
- then I danced with a HB5 or 6 (thought I should take everything I get), started grinding too, but way more sexual (touched her boobs and ass), turned her around and kissed her too.
- after a few minutes of kissing she touched my dick (in the pants), but then her friend pulled her away -.-
- BOOOOOM, 2 KCs and about 7 approaches in like 1 hour. They were absolute sloots, but that doesn't matter
- I wore my shoe lifts and even height mogged some guys!! Holy shit. Event though they only effectively give me 4-5cm or so. Guess there were a lot of small guys. They hurt my knees when walking in them and are obvious when I sit and my pants slide up, so maby next time I put them on in the club and not before
- observation: Asians (also Indians) dig me (white guys). A slightly above average white guy is a god for them. Sadly only 1 in 20 of them are hot (to me). The Asian girl I kissed was fine, but not Asa Akira. I talked with a drunken Indian guy and a female friend of him watched us. I had an aplha body language, cause I still felt awesome and he was drunken and beta af. She smiled at me.
- I intimidated a guy hard af, haha. He laughed about me and a few seconds later was scared that I would beat him


other nice things:
- only drank a bit alcohol (I want to decrease it further slowly)
- didn't wast any money
- had a good mood on the long and cold way home (because of less alcohol, hand cream, gloves, scarf)
This might sound funny, but those are serious improvements.

Bad thing: I only slept 2 hours, bc of the fucking sun, but oh well..


I'm going to write a review of the year later. I got 3 KCs. This is still bad, but those are 3 more than in 2014. I feel there will be something more in the last days.

I don't know if somebody even reads my thread, because finally starting to approach took me so long, but sorry for the mistakes in this post. As I said, 2 hrs of sleep.