TOPIC: introducing myself again (intro 2)

I'm bbboost and I'm introducing myself here for a second time. The first time I introduced myself was a few months back, I happened to wonder into the forum section of GLL while checking out all of the content that was on offer. I didn't realise that this section was meant for the AA (approach anxiety program) introduction on day 1. Anyway, here I am again. This time I'm doing the AA day 1 task of introducing myself and asking myself a few questions to make sure I want to start this program.

I'm here because I have approach anxiety and I need to overcome it if I want to live the life I want to live. You can read my first introduction for a history of my sexual life: www.goodlookingloser.com/forums/introduc...nities-regret#333579
tl;dr
Basically I have approach anxiety and am a virgin who's missed a lot of opportunities and regrets it. I'm at a crossroads right now, I can proceed with my average comfortable life as an undersexed male (Chris explains this well in his article www.goodlookingloser.com/laid/index/the-...-the-undersexed-male ), or I can push myself to make a change.

When I wrote my first introduction I was on crutches and stuck at home surfing the web as I usually do. I was overweight, and I was studying something that wasn't for me.

Since then I'm still overweight but I've lost 5Kg (about 10 pounds), which really isn't much for someone my size: I'm 193cm (6ft 4inches) and currently 104Kg, I will be happy at 95Kg, and probably quite ripped at 90Kg, only getting there will I be sure. And I've changed my field of study to something I think is for me. So I'm happy to say some action has been taken in my life over the last few months in order to improve it. To improve myself I guess.

Am I really committed to this?
Honestly I was waiting to get to 95Kg before starting the AA program but having read Chris' AA program article I realised that I'd always have a reason to postpone starting and that would mean not dealing with my AA and potentially never doing so, and growing old a loser. I'm scared of that. And I think Chris recommends starting even if you aren't in great shape and just working on both things at the same time, as long as you aren't obese. Right now I think I'm around 30% body fat but I don't really know, maybe the 25-30% range. I would post pics but I don't know if I'm ready to post pictures of me on here just yet, I'm scared that if I recommend GLL to a friend they'll find these posts of mine and right now that would embarrass me, I'm still quite insecure.

#1 goal = #1 priority
I'm not sure about this, beating AA is not my number one goal or priority right now, part of me feels it should be, but it isn't if I'm being honest, it shares that position with school and fitness. I don't really have a single #1 goal at this point in time. That's a problem, as I said I want to lose weight right now, and that already breaks the #1 goal = #1 purpose rule. But this specific side goal is acceptable if you are not obese from my understanding of the AA program article ( www.goodlookingloser.com/more/archive/en...-approaching-women// ). The real problem is that my next year of university is starting soon and I cannot let that fall by the wayside. That said, I will always have study or work to use an excuse for not handling AA. and that simply is not acceptable, especially because university is a time for banging chicks and having sexual experiences. Now of course, I could lose the weight, and then get into the flow of university before starting the AA program, but that may never happen, and right now I've got a little time before the university semester starts, so why not make the most of it?
I'm going to think about this a little, I want to make sure I commit to the AA program as Chris recommends, but I also have other aspects to my life that I want to maintain and focus on, specifically school to get skills for a good job, and fitness to get to a healthy body weight that I like and that is attractive to women. Although, as I know all to well from experience, it doesn't matter if you are physically attractive if you are too insecure to approach or even engage with women. Or just other people in general for that matter.

Whatever my decision, this will serve as my AA introduction and allow me to finish day 1 of the AA program. If I pursue this program I will have to start a log, so we will see whether I start the AA program now, or if I leave it for another time. Maybe I will go at a slightly slower pace if it I'm not willing to make AA my single #1 goal.

If anyone actually reads this and has anything to add to my reasoning I wouldn't mind listening to what you have to say.