TOPIC: Innerduckshin

What’s up my dudes!!

I’ve spent some time on this forum prior to making a profile. Now I’m ready to get involved. I’ve got quite the story for you guys. I believe you’ll all appreciate it. Or perhaps not, since the ending is not so good.

But first - I’m in my late 20s, and I’m here because I’m a virgin who’s never had a girlfriend, and I’m getting damn tired of it.

So onto the story:

So, two nights ago I went to a concert by myself. I bought the tickets second hand last minute and couldn't find anyone else available to go on such short notice. The concert was Slayer, Anthrax, Lamb of God, Testament, and Napalm Death. Everyone there was a sweaty, ugly metalhead with a Slayer shirt on.

The concert lasted for like over 6 hours, and towards the latter part of it I got tired and hungry. So I went to the concession stand and got a slice of pizza and an order of fries. There was nowhere to sit down and eat so I went outside to the smoking area and sat down on the bench to eat my food.

As I was sitting there I looked up, and sitting across the balcony about 30 feet away from me was the most drop dead gorgeous girl I’ve ever laid eyes on. I saw her through all the ugly, metalhead degenerates with Slayer shirts on, and it was like a beam of light from heaven was shining down upon her. She was wearing normal, non-metal clothes (as was I), and she was sitting all alone.

I immediately told myself - you’re going to get up right now, walk over to her, sit down next to her, and talk to her. So thats exactly what I did. I picked up my food, and made a straight line for her. I walked up, sat down right next to her, and started talking to her.

It went awesome! We talked for the rest of the night. We hit it off so well. I could tell she was so into me. There was a spark between us unquestionably. The way she looked at me, her mannerisms, her whole demeanor. She wanted me as bad as I wanted her. There’s no doubt in my mind. The look in her eye, the way she laughed at little things I would say, the way she seemed kind of shy, but still engaged. There’s no question she was into me. I was eating a box of french fries, and I asked her if she wanted one and she said “yes”, so we shared a box of fries together. Then I offered her a cigarette and she took one. I was leading the conversation, and displaying a level of confidence and dominance that I think captivated her. But I did not just talk and talk and talk without letting her get a word in. I did plenty of listening, and it was a wonderful conversation. We talked about so many things.

It was a pivotal moment in my life. It was magical. I proved to myself that I COULD talk to beautiful women, and that beautiful women COULD want me.

But here’s the crappy ending..... Early in the conversation I asked what she was doing there and she said she was there with her boyfriend and that he was inside watching the concert, and she couldn’t get back in there because she couldn’t find him and she was getting pushed around. So she went outside to the smoking area and sat down. That’s where the two of us met. I had full intentions of getting her contact, but I didn’t want to do it too early because I didn’t want to ruin the conversation. Unfortunately I got my timing wrong and her people came out, including her boyfriend. I lost my chance at that point. They hung around for a minute and talked. I noticed she did not get up and get into her boyfriend’s arms. She stayed sitting right next to me until they left.

After about 5 minutes they said okay, lets go. And she reluctantly got up and followed them. When they got to the door of the auditorium, about 30 feet away from me, she turned around and waved goodbye to me.

Now I’m kicking the fuck out of myself for not seizing this opportunity. Her boyfriend seemed like a skinny little doofus who couldn’t offer her what she had just experienced with me. He didn’t even come close to me, and she knew it. She obviously wanted me so bad, there’s no doubt. There’s no way in hell she would have acted the way she did if she didn’t. This girl was a 10/10 by anyone’s definition. An 11/10 in my opinion. Sweet, kind, delightful, and a total knockout. I’ll never run upon another one like this again, especially not in such a perfect situation with such a prime opportunity. That was a once-in-a-lifetime occurrence.

I only got her first name (which was an unusual name for a female, and I doubt there are any more of them in her city). I tried looking her up on social media after the fact, but no luck. I even put out a missed connection ad on craigslist for her. I don’t intend to stop trying to look for her. She lives in my state, probably about 4 hour’s drive away. If anyone’s got any suggestions on how to find someone with just a first name and a city, please share.

Other than that, I’m here to help myself. Not sure if I'll do the AA program or not, but I definitely intend to read the threads here and learn from you guys. I think I’ll probably get my physique in order and get into my workout routine before I do this program.

Thanks!!

Well, I guess nobody’s gonna reply.

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As far as the over-idealizing one encounter thing goes, the only thing I can say is I can’t help it. Not that this is a bad thing, but most guys here seem like their goal is bang hundreds of chicks, and most seem kind of cynical when it comes to love or relationships. Me, I’m more into romance and finding one woman I can give it all to, and she can’t give her all to me in return. I’m not interested in banging a buffet of pussy five days a week, although I’m definitely going to try to get into picking up women for sex in the beginning just to gain experience. So to shorten this, I’m definitely not going to get up on this girl I met right now. I’m going to continue to look until I find her. The moment I had with her was perfect from beginning to end. Everything went perfectly (except my timing of course). I don’t think I’ll ever run up on a situation like that again. A drop dead gorgeous girl sitting at an outside smoking area alone (the perfect place to sit down and talk). Not to mention the fact that she was so into me. I don’t think I could find another girl that beautiful who is so into me and interested in me. It was just perfect all around. So the only thing I’ve got to say to anyone who wants to comment on this issue is this: if you’re not going to help me find her or suggest ways I could look for her, then don’t comment on this topic at all. Don’t tell me to drop it because I ain’t gonna. That’s just the way it is.

On a different note, yes, I will most certainly document my workouts. I will be starting that within the next couple weeks. I can’t wait to see my results!!

Oops sorry the pics are sideways

"I’m definitely not going to get up on this girl I met right now. I’m going to continue to look until I find her. "

This will not end well.

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Your energy would be better off spent signing up for online dating and finding new girls to go on dates with.

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Also dude, are you Kevin Godec (aka Purge Gamers)??? You look like him:
www.google.com.au/search?biw=2133&bih=11...imgrc=Kthd67_9Q42KQM :

killtheinnerloser wrote: "I’m definitely not going to get up on this girl I met right now. I’m going to continue to look until I find her. "

This will not end well.

Your energy would be better off spent signing up for online dating and finding girls to go on dates with.

Can’t help it man. Once my mind is set on something, there’s no turning back. That’s just the way it is. My brain obsesses over things. I’m just along for the ride. As Isaid, I knew everyone would have a dissenting opinion of my intentions, but I can’t help it. That’s just the way it’s gonna have to be. WILL find this girl if it’s the last goddamn thing I do.

I’m fine with doing tinder and such for hookups. There’s no reason why I can’t do both. I just need to lose my virginity somehow. Perhaps go for a fat ugly girl at first?

Now, will you guys please make like fags and tell me what you think of my looks? Pics are above^^

"I just need to lose my virginity somehow. Perhaps go for a fat ugly girl at first?"
Yeah, do whatever it takes to lose your virginity.

You haven't shown us your looks, only your face. You need to fix your haircut.

Show us what sort of outfits you wear on a typical day/night.

killtheinnerloser wrote: You need to fix your haircut.

Yeah I know I gotta fix it. I’m trying to. I ordered the parts, but they were on back order, so I’ll have to wait.

Also, I wear normal shit. I shop mostly at American eagle, Hollister, and Abercrombie. I dont really gaf about this. I think I look fine. It’s more about your attitude, confidence, and being comfortable in what you’re wearing. As long as it’s decent, I don’t see why it matters much.

With all due respect, a virgin doesn't have the experience or knowledge (which is derived from experience anyways) to say what matters and what doesn't. Keep an open mind and take the advice from the more experienced guys.
Also, get a haircut.

I’m not necessarily interested in losing my virginity believe it or not. I know that sounds shocking, but I’m at a point wherein my attitude is - if it happens, great, if not, great. I’m mainly looking to learn how to depend only on myself for contentment and happiness. I’m getting older now and losing my virginity kind of seems the same as getting a college degree. If it takes you until your late 20s to 30s to do it, it doesn’t really count or matter anymore. The thrill is gone, so to speak. I’m just looking to transform myself and become happy by myself: