TOPIC: Welcome to my Journey

*Where you are from?

-Im from Germany

* How old are you?

-Turning 25 this month

* What are your goals? (specific goals- I want to bang # of chicks in 2012)

#1 Im just so tired of seeing so many beautiful Girls and never talking to them. I often make eye contact and even get positive responses but I dont have the balls to just simply walk up to them and say Hi. I want to finally solve my social anxiety and be able to approach any Person that im interested in by the end of this year .(Deadline: in ~5Months)
#2 I need a stable life situation because right now i dont have a job, living in an appartment that I have to leave in 2months, I failed my studies and will be unemployed at the end of september. So I want to live in an appartment, have a decent part-time job for now to sustain my basic expenses and have enough free time to build a business or do whatever .(Deadline: in ~2-3Months)
#3 i want to build up my social life and surround myself with more likeminded/positive people(for now this might become a side effect of the AA Program. I will focus more on it after Goal #2 is set.
#4 I want to accomplish 6months of consistent workout. 3 days a week. already going 1 month consistently, so the deadline is also at the end of the year(~5Months)

* If you could accomplish ONLY ONE THING in the next 12 months. What would it be? (be specific)

-I struggle a lot with this question. I don't know. I strive for constant improvement and growth. I think id like to achieve something that indicates how succesful my efforts into improving myself were. So in that regard. I want to have a threesome with 2 sexy girls.

* How long have you been reading self-improvement stuff? Pickup/dating material?

- I never really bought into reading/actively trying to gather informations about self-improvement before the age of 23. The only material that i read before were contents like "How to get my ex back" and "10 Best Text Messages to make a Girl chase you" - kind of crap. I ultimately learned about RSD and all this stuff at the beginning of 2017. So nearly 2 Years now.

* What are you main blockages? (if you don't know we'll figure them out)

-My #1 main blockage at the moment is definitely Approach Anxiety. It goes so far, that I even recognize that girls are checking me out/holding eye contact/doing other IOI's and still I don't talk to them
-taking action in general. im watching too much stuff, consume too many informations and end up doing nothing at all by just staying inside.
-being sexual/man to woman/complimenting girls. I have a lot of trouble expressing how i feel towards girls. when im in a conversation with a girl my mind naturally comes up with very good compliments or playful things to polarize the conversation but I cant get them out.

* What's your experience level, more importantly- what's your dating/sex life been like over the past few years?

There is a long story behind this but I want to keep it short:
-I lost my virginity at 22 in a One-Night-Stand on a 5-day seminar with lots of people of my age from a volunteering-job(End of 2015)
-In the next year I got most of my reference experience from more seminars. Had some makeouts and 3 Lays. One of them turned out to be my girlfriend which dumped me at the end of 2016.(4Months relationship)
-2017 is the year that changed a lot. I learned about RSD from a friend and went out doing social challenges. I applied for a job where you have to approach ~400 People a day (Fundraiser). In that year alone i had sex with 10 different women, most of them more than once. Had some real high point there. I settled a little so I ended up having no girls available again. I moved towns for studies, started approaching again and at the end of the year i got to know my next girlfriend.
-During this year i was basically stuck in a mongamous relationship that I only got into because of insecurity. I was scared to be alone, I wanted someone to cuddle during the winter times, I wanted to be loved and have consistent access to sex.
Because of my previously acquired skillset I managed to keep up my attraction level most of the time, so sex was rarely an issue. The real problem though was her jealousy. I nearly cheated on her on the beginning of the relationship and even had sex with another girl right before we became exclusive. I was still in playermode and she made me feel guilty about it. Over the course of nearly 9 months, i became very insecure about talking to other girls, because my girlfriend always freaked out like crazy about little stuff. She even suspected some of my platonic girl-friends to be secret affairs. I broke up with her 3 weeks ago because i got really fed up when she checked my phone for evidence and found a text message where I kinda complained about her jealousy. We kept meeting unregularily and even had sex, until she met other guys and started to blueball me a few times. I got very reactive and cried like a little boy most of the time we spent time together which caused her to lose all attraction for me. Yesterday we broke contact. Today I deleted everything of her. Tomorrow I will start to build up my self-esteem back up and become fucking incredible with girls in general.
-Generally speaking, when it comes to game I used to be intermediate, had decent success with girls already but got into a 8-Month Relationship that fucked with my beliefs and my sociality so im pretty rusty again.

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