TOPIC: Hi ya´ll I´m ready for Change

Hi There. Redpill/selfimprovement/pua...this is all new stuff to me, but then again I've been living under a rock to speak for the last 15? yrs or so, just being complacent with whatever comes my way. And I'm truely sick of it ! I already was fed up with the life I was living but I couldn't just yet figure out what was causing it. I did suffer from a mild depression and I did overcome it with meditation and mindfullness practice, but those innate fears of rejection by women, that is hard to overcome, no matter how much you meditate. So for a long time I didn't consider myself worthy of another woman's affections, also I was seriously infatuated with one particular woman, to whom I kept comparing and discarding all women who were interested in me. But time heals wounds and only the last couple of years I had the courage to start dating again, although the anxiety still gets the best of me.

Where you are from? Netherlands, Amsterdam

* How old are you? 37

* What are your goals?
-Find a stable job (I'm unemployed currently) to have one less worry when approaching women
-build muscle mass after heaving lost a lot of weight (25kg in 1yr)
-start a strict diet (I eat healthy but I still crave the sugar)
-finish my degree
-have less AA
-getting laid !

* If you could accomplish ONLY ONE THING in the next 12 months. What would it be? (be specific).
Have an abundant sexlife

* How long have you been reading self-improvement stuff? Pickup/dating material?
5 days (I'm serious!), this is new and enlightening stuff !

* What are you main blockages? (if you don't know we'll figure them out).
AA, selfconfidence, lack of finances/stable job

* What's your experience level, more importantly- what's your dating/sex life been like over the past few years? The last sex I had was with myself, go figure. I dated several girls when I was in college, but I was too shy/insecure to 'go for the kill' so to speak, after a decade long gap I started dating online and had several dates but it always got awkward fast, I always had to lie about my non-existent lovelife which they noticed. If i'm not attracted to a girl I can converse and flirt just fine, but I never make the move to invite them over for sex, you can't fake experience.

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