TOPIC: Rousseau's log, random stuff.

October 17th

1 Approach so far.

Yesterday I got a hot girls number in the gym. She's Russian, 5'11'', and blonde with blue eyes. We met up in a bar last night, and she was really into me.

I tried to take her back to my place, but she had to get up for work at 5:30am. We ended up going to her place, and we made out all night. We were kissing hard in the bar to. I feel like she could hardly keep her hands off of me. It was bizarre. This girl was hot. She was a 8.5/10 easy. She has a great ass.

Last night we were cuddling in her bed all night. She looked sexy in her lingerie that she was wearing. She wouldn't have sex though. She kept teasing me. She would rub my cock through my underwear and pull it out and jerk me off whenever I started to fall asleep. Then she would get on top of me and rob her body against my cock to turn me on, but then when I would try and fuck her, she would say "not tonight we just met today."

She seems like she is really into me, and she wants to see me again, but we'll see. I know how these situations work. A date goes amazingly well, she rubs your cock and tells you she wants it badly "next time", and then you never hear from her again.

Yesterday was awesome though, I thought maybe I was going to get 2 girls in one day and a SDL technically

This Russian girl would be the hottest chick I've slept with in awhile if I had sex with her.

From 2006-2014, I slept with 29 girls. In 2015 I've slept with 19 girls. I'd really like to hit 30 girls by the end of the year. Maybe I should try another cold approach streak, where I approach like 6-10 girls a day? Last time I did that though, It was terribly unsuccessful (July). Maybe I would have better luck if I tried it the second time.

Rousseau wrote: She seems like she is really into me, and she wants to see me again, but we'll see. I know how these situations work. A date goes amazingly well, she rubs your cock and tells you she wants it badly "next time", and then you never hear from her again.

Yeah sometimes they say that just to get rid of you.

October 18th

Russian girl is coming to sleep over tonight.

Hopefully I'll be writing a lay report tomorrow

October 19th

Russian girl came and slept over last night. She didn't put out. I'll write in detail what happened, but I had an interesting revelation this morning.

The reason why I have girls who don't put out sometimes, is because I put up with it.

I cancelled plans that I had with another girl on Wednesday who never puts out. I don't think I've ever had a time where a girl puts out on the 3rd or 4th date. Usually if they don't put out by this time, they never do. Frankly, I have no interest in this. I'm not interested in the "countdown to sex" type of relationship. When you get that, you're basically not being treated like a man.

This girl came over last night and basically cock teased me the entire night, until I got fed up with it and then went to bed. She went to bed like it was no big deal to her. I seriously regret not kicking her the fuck out of my house.

She kept jerking me off and getting me hard, and then when I went to escalate she would say no. She wouldn't suck my dick or anything.

Whenever I would watch the movie, she would start jerking me off again, and then I would go to escalate and she would be like "watch the movie!".

WELL STOP JERKING ME OFF YOU STUPID BITCH, IM TRYING TO WATCH THE MOVIE BUT YOU KEEP JERKING ME OFF.

Edit; Today i asked out that really hot asian girl again. Im pretty sure I acted like a douchebag when she said she was busy. I feel stupid.

I said i felt like a douchebag to her, and she said she felt bad and that she didnt think I was a douchebag. Im probably going to ease off on her
now. Im not going to ask her for like 3 months. I want to her in my bed really badly. Im gonna persist. But im going to chill for a long while.

Oh yeah, that Russian girl.

So last night, that girl came over. She was texting me super cutesy and nice like all day. She was saying how she couldnt wait to kiss me and what not. This girl was the biggest cock tease of my life. She took off all her clothes and was like rubbing her fine ass against my dick.

She kept getting me hard and jerking me off but she wouldnt finish the job. It pissed me off.

Ive decided to not put up with LMR and "countdown to sex" relationships at all. If a girl doesnt fuck me by the 2nd hang out, ill kick her right out of my house. I shouldve told her to leave my house last night. I dont care if its a dick move or not.

FUCK ME, OR FUCK OFF.

I still feel stupid for reacting that way to the Super hot Asian girl. Acting like a butt hurt little bitch is never good. The thing is that I didnt even mean to act like that. It just came out wrong and she misunderstood where I was coming from.

I've been reading the G-manifesto's blog a little bit. I really like where that guy is coming from. He doesn't whine. The charisma literally oozes out of the words that he writes.

I've got to work on being like that. No complaining. Just action and staying positive.

I've got to work on quitting cursing as well. I say "fuck" and use vulgar language way too much.

Dumb cunt.

I have no tolerance for bullshit and LMR.

The only time when I tolerate LMR is when the girl is in love with me. My 4th gf made me wait 5 fucking dates, but she was already my gf so it was ok.

October 20th

I ran into Russian girl today. She was looking pretty fly. I seen her walking by me, and I said "Hey!". Then she stopped. She didnt seem thrilled to see me, but thats ok. If she stays or leaves, doesn't matter to me.

Its windy and warm today. A bit grey to.

I didnt make any sales yesterday, despite my relaxed vibe at doors. Maybe a co-incincidence, but I think my shaken confidence was apparent in my presentation. I wasnt happy at the doors at all.

The good news is that, yesterday was bad, so today we'll probably be a lot better.

I'm promising myself that I kick bitches out of my house now that don't put out.

I cant wait to get super serious about gaming a lot.

Im going to move to a sick place where all the bars are and im going to pull girls to my place every night. I wanna live near a shopping mall to. I could pull girls constantly from shopping malls!!

I cant sleep.

I finished a book a few hours ago. It feels good to read. When I watch youtube videos, or surf GLL too much, it makes me feel bad. Reading is great though. If I sat in my apartment and read for 3 hours, I wouldnt feel like my time was wasted.

The other night I hung out with this girl at my campus. Her character and clothing style was quite disappointing. She actually looked hotter in the gym.

The reason why I mention her is that, we hung out in my old residence. We stood outside briefly, where I used to smoke cigarettes and drink coffee. While I was standing there, I started to feel emotional. I was temporairly brought back to the person who I used to be, and the emotions were intense. I cant lie and say it was gratitude or relief, it was just catharsis.

1st and 2nd years of university for me were painful. I used to think about killing myself a lot. Im really glad I didnt. Life has turned out a lot better in the past 2 years.

How dramatic though. My life wasnt that bad at all. It was an emotional prison, but many people have it much worse. I could live my life in danger and fear everyday, a life of absolute poverty. I was just a spoiled little boy lol.

I was spending my money and my parents money on drugs, cigarettes, and alcohol to numb the pain of knowing that I was an underacheiving pussy LOL.

That being said, the pain was still very real. Im proud of myself for the work that Ive put into myself.

- i conquered AA
- kicked an alcohol habit
- kicked a cigarette habit
- kicked a drug habit
- got my licence
- got a degree in advanced rudiments
- got super focused in the gym
- started studying french
- conquered a bit of social anxiety
- got a sales job (huge!)
- transformed my sex life
- trained Muay Thai for 6 months
- started working on my style

I could probably list more. The list will only get better and bigger with time. Im a success, and its only going to get better

Sales is so much fun...

its so exhilarating when you make a sale.

Something that I do that might be helpful to you its becomes friends with the person/client first get to know them make them trust you. then dump all the product you can on them. works for me but selling clothes may be a little bit different than what you're selling.

October 21st

I seen a smokeshow in the gym today. Ive already approached her before. I want to have sex with her so bad, but I know if I try again she'll probably say no. Its a really shitty feeling. Like a feeling of powerlessness.

I really dont feel like myself. For the past couple days, ive been finding it difficult to approach, and to even get out of bed.

I need to approach at least one girl before I leave
this gym.

I ended up approaching a different hot girl in the gym. She wasnt interested, but she was super nice. Im glad I did it.

I almost spent a bunch of money on pants today. I definitely need to do some shopping soon, but I want at least 1'000$ in disposable income before I start buying shit.

I definitely need a pair of pants, a black pair of pants, A new jacket, a blazer (old one is too small), and a couple t-shirts. Im going to get some new shoes as well. 3 pairs. I need a pair of dressy casual shoes, and a pair of black shoes as well.

After fucking around with bad fitting clothes for so long, I feel like im finally starting to get shit right. At first my clothes were too big, and then i bought shit that was too small lol.

I want to be the best I can be in every category. A jacked, fly, pimp with a big dick.

I just approached another hot girl with no luck.

I feel like I deserve better than what I get with women. I cant help but feel a little bitter sometimes. The world doesnt care though. To be bitter is only going to make my life not as good. The best I can do is the best I can do.

I didnt end up working tonight because my parents visited me. It was nice to take a break and relax with my family. Being around my family is really relaxing for me. I dont think about girls, work, school, or any personal decelopment bullshit when im around them.

I feel bad for not going out to write orders tonight.

Tomorrow, im going to wake up early so i can get shit done.

I have to

1) hit the gym
2) take my laptop in for a repair
3) get groceries
4) go to class
5) write at least 2 orders
6) fuck south korean girl.
7) approach 10 girls

Im also promising myself to not drink alcohol unless its on a date from now on. It took a lot of hard work to rid of my alcohol dependency, so I want to make sure I dont slip back into it.

Im kind of in a funk right now. If i put in the work, ill start feeling super good again.

I have to wake up EARLY tomorrow morning. I want to have a GOOD day, and im going to have one!

I have to work harder if I want success. I should start going out again at least on the weekends to approach. Theres no reason that I cant.

Just a reminder to not watch netflix anymore either. I havent watched it in a few days, but there is no reason for me to be watching that shit.

Im going to rock tomorrow like its my bitch.

I have to do the most productive thing at every moment. Maybe I should start logging what I do during the day, to see how much time Im wasting.

I was thinking about doing a spam approach month again, where I approach 200 girls.

October 22nd

I had a pretty successful day today of approaching. I approached a cute blondie with big tits in the mall, and bounced her to a bar, and then to my place, but she wouldnt kiss me or put out. After I bounced her to my place she wanted to go to another bar, but i had to choose between her and a date I had at 8:30. I chose the hot south korean girl instead. This girl wasnt giving me anything. No kissing.

Thats the 4th SDL failure in a row. I always get LMR when i get them back to my place. I guess im not spending enough time with them. Tonight I had to make the decision though between girls though, i had no choice. If i had no other plans I wouldve took her to another bar.

Truthfully, i dont think this girl was going to put out though. Maybe I can seal the deal on a day 2

Lol, im pretty sure the South Korean girl is bailing. She hasnt responded to my messages confirming the time. She did today at 1:30pm, but didnt an hour ago. No big deal though.

I didnt work again tonight, because of the instadate. Im going to put in a full 5 hours knocking on doors tomorrow. Ill probably start knocking at 3pm in my area, until I get picked up

I get a lot of fake numbers lately. I got 3 today and every single one of them ignored my messages. I guess it takes them awhile though to to respond sometimes.

2 of them ended up responding.

The south korean girl showed up today. She was looking SUPER FINE. Fantastic body for an asian girl. She is only visiting until October 28th. I doubt I'll see her again, but I'm going to go for the bang before she leaves for Korea.

We made out quite a bit. I doubt I'll see her again. I really had to push for the make out. It took 3 tries.

I approached a cute blondie with big tits in the mall, and bounced her to a bar, and then to my place, but she wouldnt kiss me or put out.

That's badass, man

Instant-shit never works.

Except at night, when she is tipsy/drunk.

I had 1 SDL but it was not an instant pull. I met the girl in the street at 7 pm, kissed her on the lips, exchanged numbers because she had something to do. I asked what she was doing after, she said "nothing". Then I went back to my hotel and at 9 pm she contacted me to meet right now.

SHE did the work.

Instant-shit is always : the girl is bored so why not spending time with this dumbass ?


EDIT : Also, nothing to do with time because the girl from the SDL, we just had a 5 minutes interaction in the street and then when we met I immediately went to my hotel and we fucked right away. No LMR. Same with most girls I fuck on first date, we always have sex within 30 minutes.

badideabear wrote:

I approached a cute blondie with big tits in the mall, and bounced her to a bar, and then to my place, but she wouldnt kiss me or put out.

That's badass, man

Thanks bb.

Ive got a date with a hotter girl at 9:00. I wanna seal the deal!!! Shes hot man. Shes here on a business trip for 2 weeks