TOPIC: Rousseau's log, random stuff.

October 4th

31:36

Im going to

1) get groceries
2) hit the gym
3) approach at the mall.
4) write orders
5) do homework

I need to go home and make food. Im never in a good mood when Im hungry.

I decided that im going to buy a bathmate very soon. I want to fuck sexy women with a THICK cock. I want them to cry out when I fuck them.

I approached 2 hot girls today. I got 2 numbers

They were both really fine. Especially the Italian girl.

I tried to pull the hot finnish girl back to my place. I tried to make out with her, and I went into wal-mart with her. I got her to give me a kiss on the cheek before we parted ways.

I really don't wanna work tonight. I wanna lay on the couch. Last night was so brutal to, and long. Hopefully we dont work until like 9pm tonight.

Neither of the girls texted me back today.

I have a really bad feeling about that Finnish girl that I tried to pull. I have a feeling shes going to call the police or something and report me. I dont know why Im so paranoid about it.

I made 130$ tonight at work in 4 hours. This job is starting ti pay off.

I feel like every time I get a really hot girls number, she doesnt respond to my text. Nah, im just being negative. Im going to try and close Juliet this week. Im gonna push real hard to fuck her.

I just learned something from RSD thats really interesting. The reason why I feel weird approaching in the malls is because when I go to the mall to meet women, it suddenly shifts the focus on to the girl as the center of my reality. If im just going about my business, im the center of my reality and im approaching girls and bringing them into my focus, rather than being like "theres the girl" when Im approaching in the mall. It has to do with being clear in your intent.

When Im walking around approaching girls in the mall, im not that clear in my intent. Im there to meet girls, but im also hiding the fact that im there to meet girls. When im approaching on campus, my intent is clear. Im on campus to hit the gym and go to class, but I approach hot girls while im there.

October 5th
31/36

4 approaches and 2 numbers

Up at 8:45am. Im gonna have a good day today. Im going to invite all the girls on my list tonight out for a drink.

I cant believe I finally made a good pay cheque st work this past week. Ive been making 125$ per week since I started.

I made 350$ last week in 18-20 hours

Im really not sure how much Im willing to help someone who has no gratitude or even an acknowledgement of the things that I do for him.

I feel paranoid today. I feel like im going to get arrested or something for approaching girls.

That finnish girl asked me for my last name. I gave it to her because I thought she would look up my facebook or something. She didnt respond after that, so now im sketching out. I have a really bad feeling about it. Im probably not going to approach any girls on campus today. Ill do it at the mall instead.

Ive been having the most awkward morning ever. For real, every approach and every conversation has been awkward as fuck ever since I started sketching out about that Finnish girl.

I ran into Asian hottie again today. I asked her to hang out tonight and she said she has to study and work tomorrow. Im going to keep asking her out, whenever I see her.

I also got a number from a girl. Im going to try and meet up with her and take her home for an SDL. Im not going to leave the mall either until I approach a really hot girl.

I feel like a massive creepy loser today. Im paranoid as fuck. Im just going to go home and relax, have some food, and read my book.

I got another number despite feeling like a loser lol. Thats what its all about. You just have to persist despite negative bullshit.

This is all just a feeling.

I just need to have something to eat lol. I whenever I get hungry, I start to breakdown.n same with being tired.

I took work off night tonight. I was tired as fuck.

A girl told me I was really handsome and stylish today

Im really working hard to set up some dates with hot girls, but none of them are pulling through!!

It's all good baby bayyyybeh.

It's all just a cycle man. Ups and downs, ups and downs, ups and downs. When you're down, you just gotta remember that you will be up again soon.

Life is a rollercoaster, and you just have to enjoy the ride.

Im thinking about the hot asian girl WAAAAAY too much. Ive got mad oneitis for her right now, and its fucking me up. Im probably going to ask her to hang out one more time and then forget about her for now. Maybe ill ask her to hang out again at some later date in the future. I cant be obsessing over her though, its retarded. I dont even know what shes like. I dont know what kind of a girl she is, yet im obsessing over her like shes a goddess or something. I just gotta fuck other hot girls. Shes so hot, she's a 10/10 for sure. She's short though. Probably 5'2".

Im just going to stop entertaining the idea of getting her, and im going to stop thinking about her.

You tried to pull a Finnish girl? Tell me!

They're just the same as any girl, just less social.

POctober 6th
31/36

2 approach and 2 numbers

I went on a date today with a 7 today. We made out and what not, but man her grooming was fucked up today. She needs to brush her hair and moisturize her face. I guess thats how girls probably feel about me when my grooming is fucked up.

Ive been good for that lately. I line up my beard, trim it, trim my nose hairs, clean my ears, brush my teeth and moisturize like every day.

I dont wanna be like that chick today. It was seriously a huge turn off, her hair was a rats nest man.

I need to get new razors so I get a better shave. Ive got those red marks on my neck. I could probably use a hair cut again soon to. The sides of my head are starting to get that frizzy look.

I was thinking about actually carrying eye drops and a tooth brush in my bag from now on so I never look like a nasty crack whore.

Man, im a little slut.

I really dont like girls who dont take care of themselves. Because of that, Im going to take care of myself in the best way possible so that I attract girls who are also like that.

I havent had a date with a HOT girl in a little while.

Im really looking forward to thursday, notch 47 is coming over in the morning and im going to fuck her brains out.

I hate it when all these hot ass girls give me their number and then they dont text back.

I WANT TO FUCK HOT WOMEN.

I made 4 sales again tonight. 115$ in 4 hours. Im getting better.

I feel like I get shut down so often by 8's and 9's that it almost seems impossible for to get one. I dont want to be forever banned in 7's purgatory.

A life damned to fucking only cute girls and not babes.

October 6th
31/36

3 approaches today and 2 numbers. Both girls were 7.5/10's. I missed a super hot girl today. I didnt approach her for some reason. She was walking by me and I didnt do it because I wasnt sure if she was hot at first.

I woke up today at 8:00am. Im getting a lot better at waking up early.

Ive got 2 dates set up for the weekend (with 7's) but there so far away.

I have a feeling that Im going to get laid again soon. I want the girls to be WAY hotter though.

1) Gym
2) Approach
3) Write orders

One of these days im going to fuck a really hot girl. Im really looking forward to it. I feel like it will do wonders for my entitlement. Right now, i feel entitled to hot girls, but its shaky entitlement. Its not 100% grounded.

Ive got 3 dates set up. I was thinking that the one I have planned for tonight is probably a waste of time. She is Nigerian and probably conservative. Im probably going to send her a message saying that im not interested in a relationship to screen her out.

Although, All of her friends are really hot black girls, so Maybe she likes to be fucked.

I think that when I tell girls about things that I'm good at, it turns them off. Today, I was telling a girl that I made a lot of money the previous day because I was genuinely excited about it, and then I could see her start to look totally unimpressed by what I said. I saw the glimmer of attraction in her eyes fade away. I think I should seriously avoid bragging. Unless the girl asks, don't say anything.

It feels like Im getting a lot of bunk numbers lately. I just got 1 that didnt respond, and another one told me she had a boyfriend but didnt want to mention it uring our conversation because it would be "awkward".

This nigerian girl just told me she doesnt drink or smoke and shes FOB. Im probably not going to hang out with her. I really dont wanna hang out with Non-DTF girls. I honestly dont even know. I have no idea if shes down to fuck or not.

I only made 1 sale at work tonight. That's ok though, because I've only worked 2 days and I've already made 5 sales which is more than all my other weeks. I stil have 4 more days to make 7 more sales to match my week last week. My co-worker made 8 sales tonight!!! I'm super stoked for him. It shows you that it's possible to. I honestly thought those guys were full of shit about making those kinds of sales. I'm going to tell my boss to give me the recorder, so we can figure out exactly where my pitches are falling through. Tonight, I was just off my game, but it was especially difficult. A lot of people were orders, but when I went to collect they ripped up on me because of a lack of confidence (and shady vibe) on my part. I am getting better though, that's for sure.

Tomorrow I'm going to wear my University sweater, rather than my usual outfits. Tonight I looked way too edgy for the door.

I'll get my manager to record my pitches to. I want to become amazing at this job! I want to pull in 500$ - 2000$ a week from 20 hours of work. I'm sick of being a broke ass. I want to be RICH and FREE.

I feel really left out when it comes to sex. Ive fucked 47 girls but I still feel left out. Mostly because Im not fucking the girls that I truly want. I know this will come with time if I keep working on myself.

Im still not satisfied with my sex life. Im at 47 girls, and im still not even close to satisfied. I honestly want to fuck like 300 women. I want to fuck the hottest girls. I cant wait for my sweetie to come over tomorrow morning and ride my cock. Im going to hit the gym in the AM and then grab her from school and bring her back here.

Maybe im compensating for my lack of a socialc life through dates with girls and my notch count. I do want a social circle eventually with a lot of hot girls coming in and out of it. I dont want to be cold approach date geek forever. I want to pull SNLs and SDLs regularly. It bothers me that I dont have logistics and a car yet.

I just gotta take one thing at a time though. 1) finish school 2) move to city centre 3) hit the bar and club scene like a mofo.

For now, I think its better for me to focus on just getting laid in the way that is most logistically convenient for me at the moment. I need to save money to. When I get my fat cheque next week, I should deposit 100$ to my visa bill, and then 100$ to my savings fund, and then the rest for groceries. I guess Im just reiterating my goals right now. I already have them written down in my notes on my iphone.

October 8th
31/36

2 approaches, 0 numbers

Up at 8:30. Probably wont have time for the gym but oh well.

I just fucked notch 47 again. It was fun.

I dont feel very pimp today. I need a haircut again.

Notch 47 is pretty hot and shes a really sweet girl, but I cant see us being together for very long. I think whats gonna happen is that a girl is going to see us together and she's going to tell her about how I hit on a lot of girls on campus. I dont lie to her about anything, and im sure she knows im a slut, but I still have a feeling she wont be around that much.

She told me something weird today. She said that ever since we first fucked, she feels kind of nauseous (pregnant) lol. But she definitely isnt. I wore a condom both times, and Ive never came inside her. Good thing i practice safe sex 90% of the time. I should work on making it 100% of the time.

Im going to do some homework before class, and then im going to hit the gym before I go to work.

Im really not feeling it today. I feel like ive hit on every hot girl on this campus. If i was in a better mood, I would think this was hilarious but today I just feel irritated and demotivated by it.

I feel like im going to go up to them and theyre gonna be like "this is the 3rd time youve approached me."

I feel so fucking uncomfortable right now.

I cant wait to be done bulking. I feel fat, hot, bloated, uncomfortable, all my clothes are too tight, nothing fits me properly anymore. Fuck I hate it.

I just need to eat. I get super depressed and paranoid whenever im hungry. I feel miserable as fuck right now lol

I mostly just want to lay in my bed and hide from the world. I dont want to talk to this fucking faggot or knock on doors.

I made 80$ tonight in 2 hours. Pretty awesome.

Ive got 3 dates set up for the weekend. Ive got a good feeling about them to. I might take them to a pool bar by my house. I didnt even know it existed until tonight. Definitely a good spot to take girls instead of jack astors. I have a feeling im going to smash new pussy again soon.

I cant wait to get my hair cut tomorrow or saturday. My hair is looking wack. Whenever it gets long it starts to look retarded.

Swiping on tinder makes me feel so inadequate sometimes. I see all these 10/10 girls and wonder when ill get those chicks. Its hard to tell what I truly want. Do I really want dramatic hot girls in my life or do I just want validation?

I dont know, but Im almost at 50 lays and I still want to keep fucking girls. It really makes me feel good. The +1 and the feeling of achievement.

From now on, im going to try and avoid talking on dates. Im going to get them talking as much as possible. I really want to get my date to lay conversion up. I dont want to waste a ton of time on dates. if i fucked even 1/2 of the dates i went on, i would fuck like 8 chicks per month.

Im going to stop posting in this journal, and im going to stop logging into GLL until I get laid again.

Actually by reading this log, I notice that your lay ratio from daygame is pretty much the same as me.

So I think I will do like you and just keep approaching until I get laid.

Some good considerations. I have a lot of the same things in my head at the moment so very interesting to reah you posts.

How' it going with going out at night btw?

@Leopard

Ya, truthfully I think everyones cold approach stats are similiar. Someone told me Paul Jankas was 1/10 numbers. Meaning he needs to get 10 numbers to get laid.

The people who say their "batting average" is amazing are often people who dont have logs and dont put up their numbers to show how many girls theyre approaching for real. Its not because they are liars, its because they dont track their numbers so they dont realize how many girls theyre actually hitting up.

@Chance.

Im putting off nightgame until I have rock solid logistics (next year). Im still in university right now, so i think my time is better spent doing homework, working, gym, daygame, style etc. No point of going out 4 nights a week if I have to travel 90 minutes to the venue and 90 minutes back.

Thanks for checking in guys.

October 15th
31/36

I figured I would come on here and update a little.

I havent slept with a new girl in ~2 weeks. Im still approaching, still working out, still writing orders, and in general, enjoying my life.

Ive been having a lot of thoughts lately about the utility of cold approach, female friends, my past as a miserable misanthrope, and how I treat other people.

Lately, ive been approaching less, about 2-4 approaches a day. I make it my goal to get one number a day, rather than spam approaching.

I have no problems with spam approaching. I think its a necessary step to take when becoming good at this. Now ive realized that after a certain point in your development (~ 15 lays from cold approach) its unnecessary. Its better to be a cool guy, who approaches the girls he finds attractive, and building healthy relationships with them, rather than a cold approach machine.

Of course anyone who reads this will think "duh", but it is easy to become a cold approach machine, where you focus too much on your next approach, rather than enjoying the women that you already have in front of you and being present with them.
You wont realize how inhumane youre being until, you start making friends and meaningful relationships with the women you meet. Im not judging the up and coming guys, or who I think I used to be. Im talking about the development of a persons character when being on this journey. To be a spam approacher is a part of one of the "levels" you could say.

My sales job is amazing to. Im getting better at it, and Im seeing my potential as a person manifest itself in reality. Its not just a vision in my head. I can see how its possible to become a really confident, wealthy, successful person. Ive been doing it now for almost 3 months. After i do it for about 9 im going to get a higher paid sales job when I move.

On monday, one of my old flings came over and we had a really great time. She was one of the girls who I slept with in June. We hadnt talked since July, and she randomly hit me up on text and we made plans. We went to a couple bars and had drinks, before we went back to my place and had great sex. She is the best ive had, for sure so far. Despite not seeing her for awhile, I care about her a lot. Not in a oneitis kind of way, but in a genuine way.

On thursday, notch 47 came over and we had sex. Shes a really sweet girl. Shes really pretty, and a kind person. She thinks of me as a player type who just fucks her, but truthfully I care about her to. After I went to work, I made plans with one of my first lays from cold approach. I think it was Notch 26.

We hung out last night, and we watched a movie and cuddled. I didnt have sex with her, because im not as attracted to her as I used to be. But, i felt guilty last night, because I realized that she cares about me, and I was avoiding her just because i dont want to have sex anymore. She brought me souvenirs from her trip in Asia. I always have fun when im with her, but her kindness towards me made me realize how I was just using her for my ego validation and sex. I care about her though to. I feel like the way Im intimate with women now, is the way its supposed to be. You have sex, you get to know each other, and you see what happens from there. The type of relationship that comes from this is pretty special. Its real, genuine, built on trust, and mutual respect.

I'm happy for you, bro. I wish I was in your state.

I'm currently in a really bad phase, but now I'm trying to make friends with the girls (only if they reciprocate and it's genuine). Anyway, right now, I would still need something like 3 new lays in a row to feel a little bit better.

I agree with you about the numbers of approaches. I do like you : my goal is to get 1 number at least per day so I just keep approaching till I get it. Most of the time it takes less than 5 approaches. And sometimes when I'm in good mood I keep approaching and get more numbers.

good to hear from you. i was wondering where you were rousseau!