TOPIC: Perma ban on KYIL

I tried posting over at KYIL and I got banned. There is some serious new shit that I'm working on that I wish I could share with someone or this community really, but I've always felt kind of unwanted and disrespected honestly. And no one has ever really told me why ever either, it's just silence. I understand it though, since really I've been a pretty big fuck up over the years and never really pushed myself as hard as I should have.

That's definitely all about to come to a big change. It definitely hurts me though to be completely rejected I feel like and thrown out of this community. Like some trash. Without even a explanation. Have I really brought that little of value over the years? I guess maybe so. Maybe I am that trash. And after all the extreme intense shit I've been through to even get to this point honestly. I guess it is what it is.

Anyways I just wanted to post this. Cause I'm a straight forward person. Might be banned over here as well, duno what the moderation is like anymore if any. And this place is so dead it's not really somewhere I want to keep posting in. Andy's forum is the place at this point. Obviously I can't be over there anymore either.

I intend to be highly successful eventually at any cost though and I'll always still have fond memories of this place regardless. If I gotta rise up on my own then I'll do it. It definitely sucks to get flushed down the toliet for now though. I'm used to it.

Just a little note from me on the way up.

This process is tough as hell. Just gotta keep going.

It really shouldnt matter fam.

People get laid without GLL or KYL
People get rich without GLL or KYL

in fact 99% of people that do those things with any intensity probably have never even thought of going to these places.

Write out on a piece of paper what you need to do to reach your goals and literally do that, every, single, day. Do it for a year and your life will change.

You dont need to partake in a forum you are not welcome in. Ask yourself who benefits from your presence on that forum. If you haven't benefited, which it clearly appears you havent, then fuck it, leave that place. This has been the only place that has ever helped me. You seem to be so set on giving this place up, because it's 'dead'? You're telling me you would rather have 100 fake friend over 3 bros?

All the best

Yea I was also rolling off a X fueled sex session when I wrote that shit so I was feeling depressed as hell. I won't go into the details but I'm hooked up on literally every drug in my city at this point and have taken them now at this point. Well almost all of them. It was not easy. I had to do some pretty sketchy ass shit to pull it off but I made it.

I had lay 17 last night too with my most attractive girl yet. Sex was crazy. I figured out some shit now so my blood lust for pussy is just absolutely incredible. I want to win so bad every day. But that's only cause of some shit I figured out after like 10 years of research and it's stuff that honestly is dangerous and unstable, I don't know the long term effects yet.

I'm also dropping like 10 tabs of acid at a time. I got 3 fuck buddies atm. I just exploded recently only due to some drug use combined with other stuff I know that lifted me far beyond my normal capabilities, like being on steroids or something, that literally allows me to do stuff that otherwise is never remotely possible for me.

Fucked 5 girls in the last month. And also met some super dope ass ones along the way.

I get it though. I haven't made it yet still, I don't deserve respect yet really, I have actually been through an incredible amount of shit, but I'm still far from being at the point to demand respect, and additionally I engage in plenty of toxic behavior so I get it.

Really the shit I'm doing these days I shouldn't even be posting about, alot of it is highly illegal and dangerous and I'm sure Andy doesn't want that shit on his forum anyways or to be associated with me. I can't even post about alot of it at this point.

I certainly haven't given up though and I will be fucking tons of hot girls in the future, that I know. It's just a matter of time and effort. Might not be this year, but it's gonna happen sooner or later. I have barely even scratched the surface actually of like 1% of what I'm trying to do.

It's whatever. I accept it as it is. I'm a black sheep, I got my own path to walk, and I will. I've been that way everywhere I;ve ever gone really. Best of luck to everyone. I'll keep hustling.

I'm not totally alone either, I got my people in my city at this point, and my cousin who fucking slays like crazy with tons of young hot girls, me and him compete everyday. He actually fucks more and hotter girls than me for now funny enough and he's only like 18. Easily at like 30+ lays now. He's pulled like 4 or 5 girls too in the last month, including a 3some with two hot sisters.

Some shit that does piss me off about Andy's forum is I can't easily delete my posts, and Andy seems to be get annoyed with that, plus it's more straight edge over there than it was over here but whatever, I wish him the best, He's the new boss around town now.

Catch everyone on the other side hopefully in time.

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What was your username on KYIL?

I mean I would suggest hopping off the X pills bro. Probably the worst thing you can do to yourself in my opinion. You dont need drugs to get laid

You have posts from 2013. You've been around for a while. I can't say I remember your name. Everyone has an opinion, but here's mine, maybe try laying off the drugs. Just my 2 cents. Good luck with achieving your goals.

Doing acid was maybe one of the best things I ever did honestly. I don't regret one bit any of my recent drug use although I haven't used any recently in the last weeks or months. That triggered something in me and I've never been the same since. In a good way. It was one of the best decisions I ever made.

I'm at 28 lays now. 16 girls in 3 months. I got my testicular tumor removed today. Only have one ball now and I still couldn't feel more confident. Even have had girls telling me it's sexy and shit. And yes I finally did in fact do it. I have fucked a actual fairly hot girl now, who is currently my GF but I'm pretty ready to cut her off soon and keep slaying which is the sacrifice I'm going to have to make. I've fucked 2 actually now, but it's huge to me cause now I know I can actually do it. This was before even maxing out my looks either. I still look pretty shit, I just don't give a fuck anymore like I used to. I'm very aggressive and confident at this point.

Last months have been absolutely insane for me.

I'm ready soon to push even so much harder. If you want to put me back up on KYIL I'm down to still post, cause I miss it, but if not I'm going to keep pushing and achieving my goals my own of course.

I'm ready soon to start the AA program for real now and seriously chase some very hot pussy and yes I will definitely fuck it, in the future I plan to just cold approach shit tons of hot ass girls and fuck 100+ of them.

I don't know if I even need to plan to max out my looks honestly, I know I can do it already now.

I will make it and I will be successful. That's a fucking promise.

I'm also about to start making my own money soon, initial goals are $100 - $200 per day and then go from there. I'm really finally starting to get my shit together for the first time in my life.

I'll PM you Radical and you get back to me about it if you want.

I think it's for the best. After I got banned on KYIL I honestly had the best 3 months of my fucking life. I don't know what it is but clearly people underestimating me and not giving me the approval that I always crave since I never got it before and shitting on me lights a fucking fire in me like nothing else. I don't know why I'm like that but it definitely pushes me.

Even looking at this thread tonight, it just pisses me off honestly and I just want to shit on people for it. And I'm going to keep using that positive fuel for my fire. Maybe one day I won't have to be like that but clearly I even have much more work to do.

Cause even as much as I hate to admit it, (some) other dudes still got more accomplishments than me, and that still fucks with me to this day so I think I should go out and do something about it and change it, you know?

Maybe once I make it I can finally drop that weight, but not ready to let it go just yet. I know I still haven't crossed over yet and still got a ways to go.

I actually remember scotty talking about going through some similiar shit. That he even got fuck the world tatted on him cause of it. I so deeply resonate with that feeling right now.

Why I care about it so much I'm not really sure, but I just know it's something I have to do and I can't lay it to rest until I do. I literally have to do it. I don't have a choice.

Just back to the grind as usual.

I'm the same way. I hate losing more than I like to win.