TOPIC: Here's what I'm doing

Since posting awhile back on being depressed I've started to consistently take action and I'm seeing results. I've stepped up to improve things. Here's what I'm doing

+ Working odd jobs to make cash... have made like a grand doing painting and yard work. This is important because I'm taking a road trip with a girl I dated and I won't have to dip into my savings
+ Meditating every day, two 10 minute sessions. Journaling about my situation trying to stay positive
+ No porn... this is an important goal for me, if I watch porn I feel pathetic and depressed
+ Trying to limit pointless internet use

I still have to improve my diet, and need to work out more. But I'm already in a much better place than 2-3 weeks ago.

The other night I felt really good about life. it was inexplicable, I really felt like things will work out. I have to keep building on that thought. Leaving the past job I had has been tough because I was making huge financial progress. And for the most part I liked it. But I was injured and really worried about fucking up my elbow. This is a huge cause of fear and anxiety for me, sometimes even when I have good habits. I have to really internalize the belief that things will work out for me and that I can always go out and find a way to make money.

Right now I'm going to keep up with this good momentum. Go on this road trip. And then I'm making plans to go back to Thailand again. I want to take maybe up to a year to live there, take some language classes and live life to the max. Really build unbelievable habits, stay on budget, date some and meet some new girls. And possibly grow roots there and get a work permit. This feels like something I'm so excited about and I don't want to miss out on. The truth is I'm still not 100% dedicated to building a business or long term finances. I feel like I need some fun first. Then I can focus back on that. Right now I have enough cash saved to live a year in Thailand and still have $20k left for a business or what's next.

I've asked myself seriously if I'm ready to go long term money phase, and I'm not. I still want to travel a bit.

Anyway, the point is for me that I need to keep up good habits and build the life I want and deserve. I can't fall into bad habits and depression. I have to keep taking action like I did this past year. Good things will come my way if I work for them. I really have to believe that life will work out for me.