TOPIC: Ayahuasca Journey

The title says it all. D & P posted a recent article about it and I just read this > reset.me/personal-story/personal-story-t...huasca-and-huachuma/

If it really does increase serotonin receptors then this could be an amazing thing. Im considering buying some online.

I have a decent amount of experience with psychedelics so im not too worried about a bad trip even if it does occur.


heres another interesting read

www.beamsandstruts.com/bits-a-pieces/item/750-neuro-huasca

Yes I've done a couple of ayahuasca ceremonies with a shaman. Definitely would not do it solo

I've been wanting to but I'm way too paranoid about trying new substances, let alone something as powerful as ayahuasca.
And I would never think about doing it solo, ever! Ceremony only! (this is based on tons of research)

So ive just found out theres this ayahuasca "church" thats located in kentucky. Only 6 hours from me. After getting in contact with them through email they've let me know I can attend one of there ceromonies. Its about $250 for a 3 day retreat, from what ive read it seems like a good price.

After doing enough research on this stuff im scared to death about what I may potentially see during one of these trips. But the potential benefits are too much to pass up.

Right now im trying to make a plan and schedule a ceremony date.

Its official. I've made my payments and I'll be attending a 3 day ayahuasca retreat from may 6th-8th. Once it gets close to the date ill be documenting everything im doing to prepare for the ceremonies mentally and physically.

Since it increases serotonin is there any danger for us who take high doses of kratom multiple times a day?

$$$$$ I dont think kratom has much to do with serotonin receptors but im not positive. It really seems to act on the dopamine receptors I believe. But besides that I had read not long ago people have taken kratom with ayahuasca and everything turned out fine.

Personally though im hoping ayahuasca will help me with all my addictions and mental issues. Im realistic though and dont expect two aya sessions to completely fix me. Peoples live have been changed though from using it one time, who knows.

Tomorrow ill be starting a diet that is recommended to do a couple weeks leading up to a ceremony. Mostly ill just be eating brown rice, eggs, vegtables and almond milk. Foods that contain the amino acid tyramine can have a negative reaction with ayahuasca.

Tomorrow I will also be starting a 6 day taper from kratom. Last time I did this a friend helped me and it worked out well. This time my dad will be helping me with the taper.

My mind has become completely obsessed with whats going to happen when I take ayahuasca. Im counting down the days until I make my trip to the mountains of kentucky. So many peoples stories are different theres no telling what might happen.

Last night I watched DMT- The spirit molecule documentary on youtube. Heres the video if anyones interested.



After watching this video im mostly afraid of what I might see once the "medicine" takes hold of me.

Today or tomorrow will be my last cup of coffee and then ill begin my diet. Today ill be only taking around 13 grams of kratom in two doses, same for tomorrow. Tuesday morning I have 1-2 grams of kratom for the morning and then ill be done.

Not going to jerk off or watch any TV besides some basketball games.

I had this idea in my head that cutting out all these things like kratom, coffee, jerking off, TV about 2 weeks before the aya ceremony is what I need to do to have this amazing positive experience with the medicine. The reality is though that with how my life presently is and losing certain people who used to be really close to me. I'll only be able to cut these things out for 5-3 days before the ceremony. Sitting at home alone at night is becoming unbearable. I go to the gym and the book store a lot but besides that I do nothing else. My motivation and energy has become so low.

Some good news. I've been having conversations with my dad about him helping pay for a week long iboga retreat near toronto canada. At first he didnt want to hear anything I had to say because it all sounded like bullshit. Slowly but surely he seems to be coming around and I think its going to happen in august. For anyone who doesnt know Ibogaine / Iboga centers around the world are rediculously expensive. But for so many people its completely life changing. Going to talk with my NLP coach on skype now.

Hey man. I know how you feel about sitting home alone. Why not try and move to a new place/ apartment with roommates. It could make you feel way less lonely
Good luck with the ayahuasca, I've been curious about that for a while

Captain Ramius wrote: I had this idea in my head that cutting out all these things like kratom, coffee, jerking off, TV about 2 weeks before the aya ceremony is what I need to do to have this amazing positive experience with the medicine. The reality is though that with how my life presently is and losing certain people who used to be really close to me. I'll only be able to cut these things out for 5-3 days before the ceremony. Sitting at home alone at night is becoming unbearable. I go to the gym and the book store a lot but besides that I do nothing else. My motivation and energy has become so low.

Some good news. I've been having conversations with my dad about him helping pay for a week long iboga retreat near toronto canada. At first he didnt want to hear anything I had to say because it all sounded like bullshit. Slowly but surely he seems to be coming around and I think its going to happen in august. For anyone who doesnt know Ibogaine / Iboga centers around the world are rediculously expensive. But for so many people its completely life changing. Going to talk with my NLP coach on skype now.

Being alone is not a bad thing. Learn to deal with it, seriously. Most of us men are living in solitude, I know I am. I appreciate being alone now. I am happy. I do have a lot of friends but I am also alone a lot. I don't have a girlfriend right now - but I still make sure I get laid. Once you accept that you will die alone (very probable) you feel free. I feel so free, you can't imagine. A lot of this I learned from Mike Cernovich. It's all about how you look at it (mindset).

Like I said, most men live in solitude, even if they are married. They are still alone. Most of your "friends" won't be there if shit really hits the fan. Life is a struggle, accept it. We are all fighting our own battle. Cut out coffee, kratom, jerking off and TV - show yourself that you have a strong mind - just to prove it to yourself and take the trip. Stop making excuses and bitching. You are a man, aren't you?

I know Chris advocates jerking off everyday - or at least he does not see anything wrong with it, I personally don't see jerking off everyday (or even EOD) as a good habit. I become very depressed and weak minded if I masturbate a lot - also demotivated to go after girls. Same goes for using kratom, I feel lethargic and like shit the day after.

I also recommend intermittent fasting because it gives me energy. I also do cold showers - great for building a strong mind.

You got to harden the fuck up and stop living a hedonistic lifestyle, it fucks you up. It fucks most people up including me, even though most of us don't see it. We all live a hedonistic lifestyle in this society but TOO much is bad.

Do it.

Yung Voodoo I hear you about a lot of what you said. Thing is I've actually done everything you said for a long time. Started doing cold showers at 21 and kept it up for a few years until recently. Went periods with no kratom and complete sobriety. I've been intermittent fasting since 22 years old and still do it a lot, love IF.

Its more deeper than just "harden the fuck up". Physically and mentally I can handle a good amount of pain and struggle. Emotionally though Im a complete mess and my trust for people is out of whack. Hence why im looking deeply into doing phsycedelics like ayahuasca. People say its like doing 10 years of therapy in a few hours. God I can only hope...

Something ive started reading about and im sort of believing may be the core issue for me is some sort of abandonment issue. I know thats a word I heard thrown around a lot in the past for people with relationship issues but I honestly never took it serious or looked into it. Recently ( the last two days ) after reading about it and watching some videos it actually makes complete sense. The biggest connection it seems is my mothers alcoholism. It would take forever to really talk about that but you can believe that dysfunction and chaos in the family was very normal for me since I was young. It took a long time for me to fully realize how fucked up my family life was.

Excuses excuses. It doesnt matter anymore. Nothing else matters at this point but to try these plant medicines and take things from there.

Back to the point of this thread.

I've decided to continue taking kratom as long as im staying very disciplined in almost every other area of my life such as. Good diet, no shitty TV besides some sports ( ill be watching the NFL draft tonight ), meditate everyday, journal everyday, some form of exercise everyday, sauna and intermittent fasting to detox, supplements. You get the idea.

I've also drastically brought my kratom tolerance down in a very short time which is great. Only about 10 days ago I went on a crazy kratom binge and started taking around 50 grams a day 4 days in a row.


Im still debating about saying the name of the actual ayahuasca church's name on here. The paranoid side of me worries about some people on here, not any of the regular members but people I dont know.