TOPIC: I will crush my AA

Man, your journal is inspiring, can't wait to do the same

Have fun!

Thanks! When I started I looked at the drills and thought I would never be able to do the alphabet or the high fives, but I've already done them. The high fives were probably the most fun so far.

Day 21

Location: Bar
What I did: Squeezed 10 girls' arms.
Notes: While walking from my car to the bar I thought "oh shit, how can I do this?" The bar I went to was pretty small and it became awkward quick, but I forced myself to get in there, and after that it became easier. I didn't squeeze very hard, but certainly so that they noticed it. I did the last three in a row while walking out. They were sitting right at the bar looking at me while I just grabbed their arms one by one like a fuckin weirdo! Felt like a real creep, but nothing happened. No one said anything. No one got mad.
Challenge: Completed! Went to another place and was a little more confident this time. I squeezed several girls who were sitting down, really obviously too.

Other:
- Talked to a girl at the gym, asking her about ab exercises and stuff (as if I didn't know better than her).
- Randomly asked a girl who was walking outside if she wanted gum. She looked genuinely happy about our little interaction on the streets.
- Talked to my online date for 12 mins on the phone, and a lot on Facebook too. I'm genuinely interested in her. Looking forward to tomorrow!

I've come to realize that by doing these drills I'm actually mentally tougher than virtually anyone else out there. That makes me feel much more at ease with the situation and lessens my anxiety. Week 3 completed and I'm feeling really optimistic!

ahhh man awesome dude. Did u try doing something erotic with her to get the blood pumping? I cant imagine not getting hard if u put the girl in a really sexy position.

ahhh man awesome dude. Did u try doing something erotic with her to get the blood pumping? I cant imagine not getting hard if u put the girl in a really sexy position.

Well she was kinda shy so she wouldn't let me. She didn't even wanna take her clothes off until we turned off the lights and even then I had to kiss her like forever before she allowed me to advance, which made me lose the mood. Then when I couldn't get it up again I became embarrassed and it was even more difficult. Also she wasn't super hot. It was probably the sum of several contributing factors. Maybe next time.

Day 22 (Suspenders)

Location: Mall
What I did: 1 full set and two reps of the drill.
Notes: I was in a bad mood, starving and already socially tired from seeing some relatives and driving home from visiting my date (who lives in another city). In addition it was Sunday night and there weren't many girls around. I decided to repeat this day tomorrow.

Other: Spent time with my date in the morning, saw my godmother shortly because she lived in the area, and then went to my step sister's 10th birthday party and had to socialize with some relatives.

Day 22 (Suspenders)

Location: Another mall for set 1, the usual mall for sets 2 & 3+
What I did: All 3 sets including the challenges + 5 extra reps of the challenge drill, and 1 extra rep of drill #4, and 1 extra "hey". Total 22 girls/women!
Notes: I was feeling great and super confident today. I did the first set in like 5 minutes. I basically talked to every single girl that walked past me. Then I went to the usual mall for the two remaining sets. I wasn't happy at the end because two of the girls I talked to were clearly underage  (when I talk to a pair or a group of girls I only count it as one) and one was older. Sometimes it's hard to judge someone's age before I walk up to them. Also since yesterday sucked and I was feeling good I wanted to really challenge myself. That's why I did as many as FIVE extra reps of the challenge. Man was I on a roll today!
Challenge: Completed 8 times!

This was the most fun day so far. I legitimately made so many cute girls laugh out loud! Especially at the ass crack line.

How refreshing not to have to ask for the time over and over.

Other:
- Made lots of eye contacts. I have never before noticed that any girl would even glance at me, but maybe that was because I wasn't looking. Nowadays they look at me all the time, and I look back.
- At the coffee shop I sat down next to two chicks instead of finding an empty table.
- Two girls were walking in front of me. I tapped the right one on her left shoulder and walked past as if nothing happened. Then I turned my head back to look at them with a mischievous grin on my face. They looked pretty bewildered.

ahhh man awesome dude. Did u try doing something erotic with her to get the blood pumping? I cant imagine not getting hard if u put the girl in a really sexy position.

Well she was kinda shy so she wouldn't let me. She didn't even wanna take her clothes off until we turned off the lights and even then I had to kiss her like forever before she allowed me to advance, which made me lose the mood. Then when I couldn't get it up again I became embarrassed and it was even more difficult. Also she wasn't super hot. It was probably the sum of several contributing factors. Maybe next time.

oh well fuck it then lol unlimited supply of girls all around!

Day 23 (Sesame Street)

Location: Usual mall for sets 1 & 2, another mall for set 3.
What I did: Asked how I can get to Sesame Street from 3 x 10 girls + 1 extra because I accidentally asked one clearly underage girl (not that there's anything wrong with asking random stuff from underage persons, but I'm trying to keep to ages I would actually be interested in). Total 31.
Challenge: Said the rapist line to about 5 of the girls. I should've used it more, because it got good reactions!
Notes: Today sucked. I don't think Sesame Street is very well known in Finland and I probably should've changed it to something else. Everybody just thought I was looking for an actual street with that name and I felt awkward and nervous. At least I got plenty of exposure therapy. On a positive note, everyone was nice (except maybe 1 rude person) and at least one fat chick was definitely into me

I think I look pretty good now, my clothes are decent, my hair is ok, I have some nice accessories and my face and body are getting leaner. You can definitely tell it from the reactions too.

Day 24 (Birthday)

Location: A new shopping center/bus terminal for the first set, my regular stalking mall for the second one.
What I did: Asked 15 x 2 girls what they wanted for their birthday, and did one extra. 31 total.
Notes: Oh wow, today was fun! For some reason I got a lot better reactions at my regular stalking ground - maybe it's because I feel more comfortable there. Some girls were kind of rude and froze up, insisting that they wanted nothing. That kind of dipped into my mood, because as per the drill I had to keep asking.

There were at least 2 girls who were definitely into me and I found it difficult to resist trying to fuck them. The other one totally laughed out loud when I said I'd give her the holiday in Thailand she wanted, and then when she passed me by later she smiled at me and said she was sorry she was so awkward earlier. The other one was at a grocery store and she, too, immediately told me what she wanted and we held eye contact and she smiled at me in a really cute way. As I walked away, I turned back and saw that she was still smiling at me.

I think that this day was a little different and more challenging in a way, because I had to be more reactive with the interaction than usual. I couldn't just say the lines like they are written, but I had to quickly adapt according to their answers. I still need to get in there faster - as of now I still need a few seconds to muster the nerve to approach someone, and often times by that time the window is already gone.

Challenge: Completed! Out of all the girls who actually said what they wanted, I said I would give them that. I didn't manage to do it in a very sexual/sly manner though.

Other:
- Spoke to two random guys at the gym.
- Spoke to a girl at the post office.

I felt great today, almost as if walking 3 ft in the air. I haven't focused on the online stuff since the girl I met last weekend is coming here this weekend to spend the night. It's almost certain that I'll get laid and I'll rather have my first time be with her since we already know each other a little bit and I can be more comfortable. Plus I kinda like her and she's nice.

Day 25 (Lunchtime)

Location: Regular mall for girls 1-5, a smaller mall near me for the rest.
What I did: Asked 16 girls for what's for lunch, repeating the question at least four times as per the instructions.
Challenge: Completed for all those who didn't give me an answer on the fourth try! For a couple of them I didn't pause between the words (What.is.for.lunch?), but for the rest I did.
Notes: I was pressed for time and managed to get myself in a bad mood for the first 5 girls.

For the rest it was late and I was determined to get it done today rather than to have to repeat the day. I just went up to almost everyone I saw, either stopping them or following them. For the first time I did the drill on two chicks who were with their moms. It was no different, their parents didn't say anything much.

Once the girl's boyfriend stepped up next to her while I was doing the drill! I hadn't realized she was with somebody, but that made me realize something: the guy didn't dare to interrupt me, nor did he even dare to look at me. He was probably more socially intimidated by me than I was by him! I'm really starting to see where this program leads to.

I really didn't care whether they liked me or hated me, I just did the drill and followed them harassing them when I had to. Compared to yesterday, it didn't feel like much anything. I felt like an alpha male today. And I had fun, too.

Date day(s)

Sexual frustration is the name of the game it seems. The girl I met last weekend came to visit me this weekend and she's sleeping right now as I'm writing this, lol. I was attracted to her when we saw each other again and enjoyed kissing her. When we tried to have sex, however, I lost the feeling again. I was able to achieve a boner pretty easily this time, but when we "did it", it didn't really feel like anything. It felt as though I was doing some sort of workout rather than enjoying myself She didn't fare much better. We fucked for like 5 mins and then just stopped cos it was boring. Neither of us came. How depressing.

I'm starting to wonder if there's something wrong with my emotions. She says she feels butterflies in her stomach when I hold her hand, kiss her etc. But I don't feel the same way. Maybe I'm just not sexually attracted to her..? She's kind of fat. How can I get a hot girl to bang?

Well at least I guess I'm technically not a virgin anymore.

Other:
- Went to talk to a random girl at the gym despite there being other people around. I didn't care if they thought it was weird or whatever! I showed her my hands, the skin of which was torn off from rough training and asked her what she thought. Then I told her to have a nice training session and went away.
- Asked a random guy at the gym whether the song on the radio was his favorite song. Then commented on the lousy radio station choice.