TOPIC: AA journal

Dude. There's an article somewhere on GLL to help you out. It's something about stacking. I know I'm way off from what Chris wrote but try this:
Do like 10-20 sets(as many until you feel comfortable doing the rep) of just going up to girls and saying "Hey, How's it going? Listen to this: A, B, C, D, E, F, G" Then just walk away.

If that's too difficult, do this:
10-20 sets(or as many as you need until you feel comfortable doing it) and just say "Hey, How's it going?" and just leave.

Then do the first part of the drill (e.g. A,B,C,D,E,F,G) as many times until that feels comfortable. Then do A,B,C...O,P. Keep doing it until you can recite the entire ABCs.

Ok... tough weekend but got through it.

Drill:
ABCs: did the isoapproach and the full stack. Tried again Friday night (failed) finished it Saturday.

I really fucking hated this drill. I’m not a goofy guy by nature so it really got to me. Even though I never felt “free” doing it I still feel like I had to move on from it. I executed and that’s that...


Drill: Justin Bieber
-every rep except the gay one got to me. Had to re-do that gay one but got through it.

Drill (squeeze arm)
Not bad. I had a drink and went right through. I do that kind of stuff when I’m out with my friends anyway. I go out alone sometimes already. Wasn’t a big jump.


Note: I really do not like doing goofball stuff for some reason. Every rep was a grind. I feel as if hitting on girls would be 100000 times easier. I do it a bit drunk w/ friends all the time.

I won’t approach and will adhere to the program.

Don't give up, the program will pay in the long run. I was asked to leave a department store for doing the "Who's your daddy?" drill. You may experience something similar and it will certainly not feel good, but all of it for the greater purpose of achieving 'social freedom'. I do not reside in a crowded area so most of the days I did at a mall or stopped at a few local grocery stores. Oftentimes I needed to stop at two grocery stores just to find twenty women!

This covers Sunday-Tuesday. I did anywhere from 2-3 drills a day.

Drill 22: Suspenders.

Pretty easy. Got in there pretty fast. Nothing big to report.

Drille 23:

Pretty easy as well. Did the challenge "im not a rapist." The two girls I did it to thought it was funny.

Drill 24 (Birthday)

I loved this drill and had a lot of fun with it. Got some pretty funny reactions.

Drill 25: Whats for lunch

Weirded a lot of girls out and none gave me a straighfoward answer. (It was like 9:00pm at night). I think if it was during the day it would have came out differently.

Hey Guys

Haven't been posting every day. They way i set this up is I put all of the drills in my wunderlist app and try to knock a few a day. Usually anywhere from 2-3 a day. This log is from Wednesday-Saturday. This has been an interesting journey and i am surprised how much time I am spending on this.

My life has literally been work, gym, AA program, and dating (but not smashing) unattractive girls from Online dating.

Also, I got on the Keto diet a few weeks ago. This made doing some of the drills a bit more difficult as I was getting used to getting "fat adapted." However, Im all good now:

Drill: (Arnold)

-Lol I had to do this one a few times. It was pretty funny once i got the hang of it.

Drill: (Wheres the beach)

OMG I fucking hated this drill. It took me several days to knock it out. Ended up ok.

Drill: (Nerd Glasses)

Ez pz. Got through it the first run with no issues.

Drill (Super high five)

After these previous drills had no problem here.


Drill (Squeeze arms "nice")

Easy pz.



Notes/reflections:

Doing goofy out there stuff seems to be WAY harder than normal low key interactions. The order of the drills are not progressively more difficult. Wheres the beach and ABCs were a million times harder than going to a night club alone and squeezing arms.




Drill: (Time directions, non sexual compliment)

This was the easiest drill so far. Finished it in like 15 minutes.

Drill (MR. CLUMSY)

- Took about an hour. Was kind of hard to have the conversation as intended. Especially on the 4th rep because most girls would just leave after the compliment.

Drill: Banana phone

Fuck this drill lol. Took me all Friday afternoon.

Yo

Ive been doing the drills but have been shitty with logging them.

Anyway here we go.

Drill 32: (Time, directions, non sexual compliment)
- Ez, pz

Drill 35 (U mad bro)
-Kind of funny but not hard to get through

Drill 36:
Not bad either. There was one girl who I thought was really hot and i was just like "nice shoes, pants, hair, fuck it you have nice everything." It just slipped out.

Drill 37: I like your style
Was so much harder doing the "nice"


WEEK 6:

Drill 38: (Your cute 40 girls)

Got knocked back to reality again. It took me all day yesterday tell 20 girls they were cute. I went out again today and i could only do one girl.

Im going to really go hard on this week. I feel like this week is really a make or break week. I am pretty much going to spend the weekend doing week 5 drills.

I am really exited to be through with this. I cant cont how many hours i am spending walking around doing this lol.

Drill "your cute"

I can finally say I "beat" this drill. I technically finished this drill several times but I wasnt able to do it with freedom. Today I completed this drill and went balls deep. Hit up girls in crowds, those walking fast, those in groups. Every girl who I WANTED to talk to I ended up talking to.

I am happy to say that it was big day and 90 percent of my approach anxiety is beat.

I will finish the rest of the drills but really beating this drill seems like the biggest step thus far.

=)

I had my "FUCK IT" moment prematurely so I think I am done here.

I was out doing drills and I was going to a drill on this one girl.. however she was in a big crowd and this trips me up.... I end up bailing on the drill.

As I walk pissed at myself I see some dude run up to her and hit on her. My mind kind of just went "wtf am i doing this is stupid." So i pretty much started hitting on girls for the rest of the day. I got a number from a girl who I thought was really hot.

I then went on a date w/ no anxiety. Was as aggressive as I could be. Didnt smash as the girl seemed a bit conservative.

After the date I decided to go to a nearby bar. I saw a bunch of dudes in groups drunk. I talked to girls sober. I realized why I put so much time into this...

I am going to commit to hitting on 10 girls every day after work. At this point, actually hitting on girls with the intention of trying to smash them will do more for my anxiety then the drills.

All of the main GLL concepts "availability/screening" are pretty much internalized, so I dont mind being rejected a bunch of times. All that was really stopping me was crowds and being in public. I was pretty good at hitting on girls buzzed.

Will check back in later. For now... I do not think any more drills are necessary.