TOPIC: ♫ Here's my comeback on the road again ♫

It totally hear you on this forum is hard to leave because it really changed your life! I was just reading your log and it inspired me in a lot of ways. Hope things are going well, would be really curious to hear about your experience living in Japan. (I think you were living in Japan?)


Keep up the posts, I'm still here reading them.

Thanks man I'm glad it's some inspiration
I haven't lived in Japan, it was my plan after I finish university. And when I finished university, COVID came. Since then I've been in my country with no travel. And I have actually gotten comfortable here, the desire to move to Japan or bang Japanese girls disappeared. I realized I would like to stay here probably, I really like it. Might travel to Japan sometime again in the future but it's more of a side thing for me now rather than my focus. The culture is just too different, I was more open about it when I was 25-26 but now I can't imagine working an office job in Japan with a Japanese boss. I'd much rather get some experience with local girls (Czech, Slavic) and become successful here. It's the one thing that has been missing from my life

Forgot to add an update

I had a date with a model (she actually makes money modelling), tall skinny metalhead blonde

I saw her on Tinder and didn't match with her, but she had a link to her IG and on that I found her FB, so I messaged her on Facebook directly and added her, then asked her out for a drink and that was that

We made out, it was a pretty nice wine date although surprisingly she isn't really my type physically, we vibed well in terms of personality. Exactly the opposite of what I'd expect from a model date

I would post her photos but with the amount of crazed feminazi cunts nowadays that dox everybody it would be very easy for somebody to message her a link to my posts, so I might do it later when I'm sure it won't progress into anything between us

Anyway, the point is ... what the fuck, I can get a date with a model and make out with her ... and my Tinder is still a wasteland
There must be something wrong with my profile
I get ghosted by 99% of women, although I get some nice matches... a month ago a girl messaged me she would like to suck my dick and have her boyfriend watch lol. But I only get messages from crazy bitches like this, never normal girls
Anyway, I'll keep trying, I just thought it was weird. I would expect to get at least some fatties interested in me but nobody is shown my profile (I never get any likes in the "Like queue", I only match with girls after I swipe on them first, so there is definitely some fuckery with my profile being hidden or low priority). In total after a few months of swiping I have 100 matches (compared to a few years ago when I had 2000+ after like a year or two)

Funny enough, I had pretty much 0 anxiety for this date
I had more anxiety on the weekend before when a Russian girl recorded a voice message for me on Badoo, and I was nervous to record a voice message for her back to ask her out on a coffee walk. Took me 3 tries before I actually sent it and I was sweaty even on my ass (got ghosted tho anyway)
It's weird
No approaches lately, I had some perfect perfect opportunities, the kind I will never forget, that I missed. I am so pissed off at myself, I need to get my shit together and finally start approaching. The problem is that I am constantly in my head cause I am dealing with some shit, so whenever I go for a walk to "clear my head" and I want nobody to talk to me, suddenly there is a hot girl standing next to me at a semaphor for 20 seconds looking into my eyes that I have no desire to talk to, and then 10 minutes later wish I could go back in time, I get depressed and ruin my day/week from regret

Personally, if I let myself get into the thought process of "I'll do the next one." , "I'll approach the next one." The whole day starts to go to shit. I get in my head and start overthinking stuff. Maybe if you catch yourself saying something like that, it could help prevent avoiding the approaches.

To me all those problems sound like you might be fapping too much.

Legendary wrote: Personally, if I let myself get into the thought process of "I'll do the next one." , "I'll approach the next one." The whole day starts to go to shit. I get in my head and start overthinking stuff. Maybe if you catch yourself saying something like that, it could help prevent avoiding the approaches.

Yeah I know, I just gotta pull the trigger

Jake da Dawg wrote: To me all those problems sound like you might be fapping too much.

Nah, I actually started complete no-porn and trying no fap but I usually do it on average once a week (I get too horny after a week)
And when I was getting laid before, I was a complete porn addict, would jelq+edge for 2 hours a day


Anyway, I'm on a good trajectory I think, compared to a year ago I'm finally dragging myself out of shit. Let's see if this Spring I finally get that momentum going

"Nah, I actually started complete no-porn and trying no fap but I usually do it on average once a week (I get too horny after a week)"

I suggest you approach in that heightened state of horniness, I do it and it works for me.

Yes, you're 100% right. Problem is I relapsed yesterday. And the day before. And the day before. And last week

I just came back from a metal concert. I had chicks checking me out, I did nothing. Most of them weren't attractive or had a boyfriend, but still. I should have at least socialized. One showed me a meme on her phone because of my band T-shirt (I just laughed and said "nice") and then others were taking a selfie, I was on it so I told them they should send me the selfie. That was all of my social interaction in 5 hours.

On the way back, there was a group of drunk Italians. In the front, there was a hot and I mean hot, very very fuckable red head. They kept talking in Italian and as they were getting closer, the red head kept hypnotising me, giving me the "fuck me" eyes. And when they passed she said "Ciao baby!"

You know what I did? Nothing, I looked at her and went on. I was thinking if I should have a kebab or McDonalds

I should have turned around and said "YO! You're cute, what's your name?" or something but I was just anxious, in my head thinking about food and hating myself for not talking to anybody at the concert. So I didn't react fast enough

I am writing this drunk right now

I am so fucking angry at myself

what the FUCK is wrong with me

this is my last post on this forum until I get laid = penis in vagina. Everybody reading this must be getting angry at me as well so I'm gonna stop posting to not feed the attention seeking circuit in my fucked up brain and I'M just gonna fuck someone or something, until then good bye

I need to get my shit together this is not normal, or I'm gonna kill myself

I chose kebab btw, it's delicious