TOPIC: ♫ Here's my comeback on the road again ♫

tl;dr: Dropped out, let myself slip back into the comfortable life, realised it's bad, starting again

Hey,

To reintroduce myself, I'm an AA-program "dropout". I had some unexpected success in a short period of time (after being a virgin for 27 years and then discovering GLL), which made me think I don't need it anymore. I was a fool.

I had an epiphany recently. Or, to put it better, I broke through an illusion I created for myself.

At first I thought that my problem was not enough girls around here that would interest me (I might have a 'slight' case of Yellow Fever).

I based this upon my limited experience, as for the past year, I've been doing mostly online dating.

I haven't realised until recently that one of the biggest advantages of my city is that it's a tourist gold mine. There's shit loads of girls just a few minutes from where I live, and while most of them are here in a group, some are alone and most likely in adventure mode.

I dropped the AA program last October when I got a girlfriend, and around the same time managed to fuck a random girl from a bar in 30 minutes. I thought I was getting good at this stuff ("Pride comes before a fall" lol). It was at that time when I also stopped improving my style and my body, and also I became a bit of a serious tool (probably due to my promotion at work). I stopped being a cool guy, and all the good stuff I got from GLL I dropped save for a few parts. It's funny, because I totally expected it to happen, and in the end it caught me by surprise anyway.

So far, my journey's been 'good', I had some fun, usually when travelling, but until now, I never realised how much potential and time I've wasted by being comfortable with mediocrity. Now, I haven't had a pussy since April (if you don't count a Korean girl who let me suck her big tits and played with my dick, but didn't let me penetrate - "you're not my boyfriend").

So, I went to the city today, to check whether I was right, or it was another fool's dream.

And damn was I right. There were some incredibly hot girls that I could have approached.

I always thought that it won't work for me, because all of the tourists are gonna be with their friends / tour groups / whatever.

Well, what do you know, in 1 hour I passed around 5-10 girls who were alone and incredibly sexy and I could have approached them - I even passed a girl who was looking me right in the eyes and smiling, even though she was with her friend. I had so many opportunities today that I don't know how I couldn't realise this before. I think the underlying anxiety made me blind and looking for excuses.

After that, I wanted to restart the AA program where I stopped last year (basically, around day 10), or just say "fuck it" and go man-mode and approach.

I couldn't. Seriously I couldn't even ask anyone for directions.

Previously, in my head I always thought "Hey I could totally approach those girls if I wanted, I just don't want to because of *insert reasons*". I'm really good at lying to myself. But now I uncovered these lies... I'm actually shit at this. I can only approach at night in a bar. And the girls there are 99% of the time in a group, so it leads nowhere.

I am really fucked. I need to do this to become happy again in my life, like 1 year ago. After discovering GLL and my true self in 2015, I told myself 2016 is gonna be the best year ever, and then I only fucked 1 new girl this year, even though I had many many opportunities to do other girls.

So, I would like to pledge myself to something here. Even though I am now stuck for 3 years at a full time job + part time university, and learning Japanese on top - which all has me busy and stressed out as fuck - I'm gonna beat my Approach Anxiety. I don't have much time for it, so I'm gonna do it slow, I'm gonna chip away at it, even if it takes me years and years. Like a miner digging for diamonds. This shit needs to disappear for my happiness. I can do this, and I'm not gonna drop it like other stuff before.

Let this be my promise, and anyone here - feel free to fly over and kick my ass in case I decide to quit.

Don't expect me to update this everyday, but I will be coming back periodically.

Day 4 Drill (Level 1)

Walk up to 5 women and ask them for the time. LEAVE.

This took me longer than it should have, although mostly it was because I couldn't find suitable girls (I try to approach younger, attractive girls, so I'm more nervous. I can ask anything from a granny lol, it's not enough exposure therapy)

I felt really nervous at the beginning. The first girl just ignored me and walked around, like I was trying to rob her or something. Not surprising, since I'm gonna be doing these drills in the central area, which is filled with hobos, touts and pickpockets.

Next one made me smile and suddenly I felt good. Anxiety dropped and I even asked her if she needed help (she had her phone out with a map). To that, she smiled nervously and said "No" and left. Anyway, I was unphased by this as the objective is to ask the time.

The rest of the girls were split during the day, because in between I went shopping and cooked me the lunch.

After a few hours, my positive energy from the drills went away and I think tomorrow I'll be a bit anxious again. Let's see

Day 5 Drill (Level 1)

Walk up to 5 women and ask them for the time. LEAVE.
Walk up to 5 women again an ask them for the time, but do the drill faster. LEAVE.

I'm writing this as I wait between the 2 sets.

Surprisingly, the 1st girl was the easiest. After that, I went to the center on my way to the gym, and I realised two things:

1/ I have trouble approaching any girl from behind (probably I feel like a creep, also it could be someone I know) - this is a massive problem for me, as most of the girls I see walk past me and then I have to talk to them from behind their back. Today I saw an amazingly cute girl (glorious hair, one of my biggest turn-ons) and she was walking in front of me for 1 minute (we shared the same direction, not that I was stalking her LOL). All I could think of was "Fuck, if only I could talk to her! It's really weird to walk up to someone from behind and ask them for time"

2/ The more people there are around, the worse - I am absolutely paralyzed when trying to approach someone in the tourist area, where people are almost grinding on each other lol. However, when approaching a lonely girl somewhere on an empty street, it's really easy, I have no problem doing that. This is probably the biggest issue for me as I'm gonna be approaching girls mostly in crowded areas - I need to deal with this. I feel like I'm being watched all the time. I guess it's normal though.

Ad Day 5:

Did the second set of 5 girls (faster).

I managed in 14 minutes, which is like 3 times faster than before lol. Guess I work better when I have a deadline, so I can't slack off

I'm proud that I even asked a girl who was walking in front of me (I was walking next to her and then looked at her and asked - as I should have expected, it went totally okay). After that, I did walk in another direction to "make it seem like I have something urgent to get to" - which is pretty awkward, but I guess a common defense mechanism... I need to get rid of this. Anyway, I met the same girl again 1 minute later and I almost asked her for the time haha

I also managed to come up to a girl who I wanted to ask at first, but then I hesitated and almost made her walk past me - this is another problem I usually face and then beat myself up about it the whole evening. Funny thing - she looked Japanese and when I asked her, she had exactly the same look in her eyes as my Japanese fuckbuddy has when I'm fucking her. I saw in her eyes that she would maybe like to fuck... anyway, she was fat, so I'd rather fuck my sex toy. Being fat is probably the reason why she was horny (if she was) lol

Problem: I still missed a few girls to have a perfect "run" - it was usually either that I walked up to them at a bad angle (I swear I'm gonna be laughing my ass off at these "problems" in a few weeks); or something happened that got me out of balance (f.e. I was gonna ask a girl in front of me, and suddenly another guy crossed between us). I'm also more nervous to talk to pairs or groups

Day 6 Drill (Level 1)

Time, Leave
Time, Directions, Leave
Time, Directions, Have you been there?, Leave
Repeat this 5 times today, you will speak to 15 girls in total.

I had to split this between a few days, still not done with the 3rd part.

Actually, I fucked up a little because I thought I was supposed to do 5 times Time, 5 times Time+Directions, and then 5 times Time, Directions, Have you been there? So, I did only the first two.

I had problems with this drill last time, so hopefully now I'll manage.

Anyway, these last few days were a bit weird, because I had a lot of positive matches on Tinder, a lot of girls who I would definitely fuck, and even better, most of these girls replied to me.

I think I even had a shot at a threesome. Unbelievable. Anyway, it didn't work out because in the end, partially I fucked up as I was nervous to meet up, and the girl also fucked up because even though before she was up to my plan (I suggested drinks at my usual bar, which is RIGHT UNDER MY FLAT, and she was okay with that), later she started negotiating to meet closer to her place, in a bar which I know sux, and then I asked her if I can maybe sleep over when I get drunk, since it's so far from my place, and she replied "Ummm, I dont think so". So, I just said fuck it and didnt go. Maybe could have worked, maybe not.

Due to the anxiety anything that makes me hesitate fucks up the interaction in the end. It has to go smooth for me to be sucessful...

Anyway, why I think it could have been a 3-way is that this girl seemed really slutty (based on her IG pics - lots of sexy pictures - not the semicelebrity/attention whore kind either, more like "I'm horny and I wanna take a picture of my pussy just barely hidden by these panties"), and she asked me if I wanna hang out with her and her friend (a girl). And in her Tinder bio she had "I like girls". Too bad it didn't work out, it would probably push me ahead a lot.

I also realised that learning how to get girls to a threesome would solve a lot of my problems, as I always have the trouble that I encounter girls in pairs - even if one of them is super into me, the other cockblocks her and me. If anyone experienced is reading this, let me know and I'll go into details, otherwise I'm probably gonna make a new thread about this.

Then a couple of other flakes ... one girl was rly into it, even suggested a meetup, and then radio silence ... I got angry, she texted me 2 days later (from another city already) that she lost connection. Too bad.

+ 2 more Im not even gonna mention detailed

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As for the AA drills.

I noticed I'm getting better. Obviously. But I'm especially glad I started this journal, because the issues I wrote in bold above are the issues I've pretty much minimized, because I have them in my head all the time and I'm focused on eliminating them. So, I'm gonna continue with this introspective way of writing

Day 6b
5x Time, Directions, Have you been there?, Leave

So, I finally got some time to get back to this.

Needless to say, I definitely lost that momentum I had going, so it was very difficult for me to get the ball rolling. Then, I went from 0 to 100. Oh my god, this day was fucking amazing.

I started walking from my flat to the crowded area, and was looking for my 1st target.

Then I saw a cute Asian girl. She looked Japanese. My mega fetish I'm not even nervous, because it's so attractive to me that I just gravitate towards doing something haha. So, as she was walking in front of me, I walked up and started walking next to her. I said "hey, can you help me?" in Czech (wasn't sure if she isn't living here, I always open the girls in Czech first even if they seem foreign). She was looking into her phone (and a map) and instead of replying to me, she immediately started asking me for help (totally ignored my question LOL) and asked me where is Mama Coffee. I know where it is, so I showed her. She was smiling all the time and basically the interaction seemed really nice. I didn't get the drill tho, as it was obvious she has no idea where anything is.

I will get back to this girl in a second.

Then she left and a group of tourists IMMEDIATELY walked up to me (they saw me giving directions to this girl) and started asking me more questions. It was a group of funny Russian grannies who wanted to know where is a street+restaurant. So, I tried to help them and continued on my way.

I have to say that I really needed these 2 interactions, as the whole noon (from like 12 to 2 PM) I was nervous as fuck and reading others' AA logs so I could get the courage to start this drill. Now, I got warmed up and was ready to do this.

I was walking around, looking for a girl to ask what I wanted. But at the back of my head, I was like ... "man, why didn't you try talking to that Asian girl, she seemed into it and was kinda cute". So, I did something any good creep would do. I turned around and started walking to that MamaCoffee she asked me about, in the hopes that maybe I will meet her again and try to talk to her.

I walked past that café (MamaCoffee) and looked inside through the windows to see if she is there. It was creepy as fuck but hey you gotta do what you gotta do Anyway, she wasn't , so I turned around and went back.

And then I saw her on a tram stop. She saw me too, but was nervous, so she turned around and pretended not to be there.

I walked up to her and said "hey, so did you find it?". She said she did, but it was empty, so she went away. I assumed she went there for a date, but actually it turned out she just wanted some company. So, I carried on with the conversation and then I found out she was Mongolian and studying here. Well, call me an idiot, but I got quite turned off, as there is a lot of Mongolian girls here and they are usually quite dirty. So, we still exchanged a few words, and I could have gotten her number I'm pretty sure (it was really smooth and she wanted to talk), but I didn't, as I probably wouldn't follow up on it anyway. We exchanged goodbyes and she wished me a nice day while I was walking away.

This new experience made me feel amazing and ready for the following drills. To me, it was basically almost a full on approach...

All I needed to do was ask 5 girls the time, directions and if they've been there.

Well, turns out it's quite a challenge asking a LOCAL GIRL if she knows where is THE MOST FAMOUS MALL in this area, because none of them have any fucking idea. So, it took me 2 hours, I spoke with like 10 or 15 girls in total, because most of them didn't know, so I couldn't ask them if they have been there

In the end, it was much easier than I initially thought. I found out that I get much better reactions when I start the convo by "hey, can you give me some advice?" as opposed to just asking "hey do you know what's the time?" like before - those girls usually just ignored me, whereas when I ask for advice, I haven't had a single bad reaction. Could also be because I looked really good today (I dressed cool), I had quite a lot of attractive girls looking at me.

Most interactions were quite insignificant (fun, but nothing special) - I would however point out one girl in particular. She was really attractive and I know her type really well. She was absolutely the same like one of my friends, who is very spontaneous and has no problem going out with total strangers when travelling, goes for any cool experience. This girl had the same aura, she was joking around with me and Im pretty sure I could have gotten her number and gone out with her. She was quite attractive and that's saying a lot about a white girl, coming from someone with an exclusively Asian fetish Anyway, didn't ask for her number, but maybe I should have. When searching for her cellphone, she mentioned she could use someone to help her carry her bags (she was shopping before and basically looked like a Christmas tree with all the bags). So, that was a good chance to ask if she's going in the same direction and offer help. But, I didn't. Doesn't matter, got the drill

Today's style:

15.7.2017 - I'm gonna mark today's date as a historical day

I finally did my first full-on, direct, no bullshit daylight approach

Fuck I feel awesome!!! I feel like I ascended to a higher being no longer chained by the bullshit human rules I'm only half joking

I don't like the AA program, since it's really weird in my country - if I could do it in English, I think it would be much better

So, after coming back from Korea, I felt motivated to just go out and try talking to girls - tourists

I woke up in the morning, messaged some Koreans on Instagram (found by the hashtag of my hometown in Korean language - I'm a pro stalker)

Then I got a coffee and just started walking around the city, looking for cute girls who are alone

Most were with their friends or boyfriends, so I didn't try anything - however, I realized I'm losing so much potential by doing this - as one of the friends can always be into you so much to meet you later in the day, and if it's the other girl than you're interested in, she might help push the girl you like into meeting you, since she will be repeating how handsome you were - unless she is a total bitch who will cockblock you out of jealousy - still, better to try (learning point - go for the pussy even if it's 2 girls - there is a chance and there are too many of these girls to leave them out)

I'm not desperate for pussy, since I just got back, so I wasn't afraid to try something - I know if I was desperate, I would get depressed if I didn't have any success - but I felt more hopeful than desperate, since I know there are so many potential girls once you drop doing online dating and bargame as priority


I saw 1 girl who was alone, but I dont have lenses, so until I asked her to take my photo (as a tourist), I didnt see she wasnt really cute, so I thanked her and left (by the way, I think this is an awesome way for an indirect approach- she kept smiling at me, I think she liked me)

And then, I saw another girl, perfect opportunity

Alone, playing with her phone, kinda cute (nothing special, but still, I would be proud of myself even if I approach a fat hambeast) - I was hesitating, but she kept standing in the same spot, so after a few seconds of circling around like a confused shark, I broke my anxiety and just went for it

"Hey do you speak English?"

"Yes, a little"

"I know its a bit random, but I just thought you were really cute."

"Me? Ha ha what thank you"

*shaking hands and introducing*

Then we just spoke a bit about how I got back from Korea and got her KakaoTalk. I don't think I'm gonna get anything out of it, but still. Guys, this was my first real approach. And it was so easy!!! I wanna do this the whole summer, when this city is full of travelling students.

By the way, she had her sunglasses on, so I could see my face the whole time - it was really cool, I felt like I'm talking to the mirror - I was just smiling all the time and I saw how natural I seem, it wasn't forced, nervous or anything - I really felt good and she kept smiling too

When we parted ways, I just half-ran directly home to write this report

On the way, I was so full of energy that girls kept looking at me (I think I was radiating good mood), I helped some random tourists since I saw them with the map (I didnt hesitate for a second) and some girl asked me to light her cigarette, all in like 10 minutes

Fuck

Awesome

I love life

The girl:



I realize now I may or may not be a pedophile

Today: Went out, but no approaches

I spent pretty much the whole week watching porn and masturbating, even 4 hours a day. Summer horniness + after-Korea horniness. I can't help it, I just get erections even at work, day dreaming about the last girl I fucked and her silky smooth skin and pussy. I'm too anxious without masturbation to do anything, I can't focus. I need to PMO. So, as a result, my motivation for real pussy and self-confidence dropped as expected, and even though I planned to do approaches the whole weekend, I got out of bed at 1 PM and barely made it to the shopping mall for lunch.

Then I saw a girl that started my engine all over again. Unfortunately, I was in a shock for a few seconds and until I could chase her down, I lost her between the regals and she left the mall. I quickly paid and tried to find her. I walked around the whole building but unlucky. Creepy as fuck, but she was really amazing, and we looked each other in the eyes for a second. I felt this was the signal I needed.

So, up and running, I had a coffee and started walking around the touristic part of the city again.

I've seen a few girls I could approach, but I didn't as 99% of them were with another girl. I felt like I could have approached them if they were alone, but I'm still a bit anxious about approaching 2 girls (sober), or when there are other people around. Anyway, I'm gonna keep trying and eventually I'm gonna do it, cuz these are the absolute majority here. I saw some reaaaaally hot girls too.

Strangely, I feel kind of calm and peace now that I'm finally doing this. The past 2 years I spent trying online dating and a few times nightgame, trying to chase down Asian figa and just ended up frustrated. Now that I went out to try daygame, I see there are so many opportunitites... and I feel like I'm finally ready to do this.

Observations: Last week, I felt much more at ease to approach - why I think that was:
- enjoyed lots of good sex not long before
- didn't watch porn for 3 weeks
- the longer I'm in my "normal life mode" (office job, boring ppl around, no new experiences), the lower motivation to approach I have - while still being horny. Guess it's kind of being pacified by the routine? Idk how to explain it, I feel depressed due to my lifestyle. But at least, now I can actually observe it and compare - before I thought it was normal
- and yeah, I'd actually seen (and approached) such amazing pussies in Korea that the same girl as before doesn't make me so anxious anymore - that also means that half the girls I would have fucked before are now ugly to me.. Let's see my standards after half a year celibate again lol

Big in Japan wrote: Today: Went out, but no approaches

I spent pretty much the whole week watching porn and masturbating, even 4 hours a day. Summer horniness + after-Korea horniness. I can't help it, I just get erections even at work, day dreaming about the last girl I fucked and her silky smooth skin and pussy. I'm too anxious without masturbation to do anything, I can't focus. I need to PMO. So, as a result, my motivation for real pussy and self-confidence dropped as expected, and even though I planned to do approaches the whole weekend, I got out of bed at 1 PM and barely made it to the shopping mall for lunch.

i feel you dude... i am the same right now. during the summer i pop random boners all the time it is quite embarrassing. i think it has to do something with vitamin d. when i get that horny and watch porn i feel depressed and like shit afterwards. it feels so much better when i resist that urge and channel my sexual energy into approaching or something productive. i have been my best with girls when i didn't watch porn at all and only masturbated once a week.

I found in Korea my absolute minimum is to rub it out once a week, otherwise I become a rude nervous asshole. Without porn though.

I do agree about the motivation. I approached a pornstar level of attractiveness girl after 1 week of not cumming only because I had to do it. I just had to. If I didn't I would kill someone. Actually, I lowkey made my group of friends go to a bar and sit there for hours just so I could see that girl at the next table and have a shot at approaching (and after a few beers, I did and got her contact).

I'm 100% sure if I watched porn before that, I wouldn't even go out, I would stay weak and all cuddly at home in my fucking bed, swiping on Tinder. And if I did go out, I wouldn't even think of approaching anyone, I would just silently hate myself.

Testosterone is one hell of a thing...

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