TOPIC: Jstone Finishes the AA program

@slickbackhair lol I aint going anywhere. just finished day 32 "time, directions, non-sexual compliment".
today was super easy, nothing too exciting happened, one younger girl i think lied to me about not knowing how to get to this restaurant. That was really the only adversity i felt today. I was feeling very anxious today for some reason. not like psychologically but more physiologically as I was breathing fast, and had an accelerated heart rate. Took some happy hippo 1 and that calmed me right back down. back to studying, peace out

Sup JStone.
So, what did you understand from Chris's day 22 audio?
We have to do this funny drill however we want, right? Happy/sad/serious/yourself, but you have to be serious about it and fuck with the girl.
Well, I wanna pull of a Jim Carrey type of character but I don't think I can. The character that I think I can pull off is like a sad but serious guy like, um. Steven Wright, Louis Ck and maybe a little bit of Jim Jeffries. What do you think?

Nothing but love.

Hey dude, yea the main point is just to do the drill successfuly, the way you act is beside the point i believe. You can really do it however you want. You'd get some weird reactions acting like Jim Carrey lol, but personally i did it mostly just acting normal cuz the question is already ridiculous enough in itself. Or i would do it dead seriously, I thought that was funny and the girls probably thought so too haha

Hey, just finished day 33 "directions, just fell down, compliment, hope i make it there" and day 34 "banana phone drill". Once again, today wasn't too bad. I did the banana phone on this super hot chick wearing a blue dress and black leggings and she started giggling and it was awesome. About the only highlight haha. cruising along this program pretty easily at this point
-Jstone

Awesome brah!

Cruising along easily? Seriously? That's awesome!

Day 35 "you mad bro?" drill, DONE. This was a 2 day thing for me, i did most yesterday and finished the rest today. Wasn't too bad, but most girls were NOT having it lol. got a lot of rude "no's" when asking "u mad bro?", only made it worse when i asked like 3 more times lol it was funny though. Thats about it though
peace

Hey, man, nothing but love.
How are you dressed up when going out for the drills?
Me, I'm rocking
-black leather sports-but-classy shoes?.
-navy blue jeans, good fit; how do you call them? slim on the whole leg?
-simple fitted white dress shirt
-black leather jacket
-brown leather belt
-black leather jacket
-discreet-looking sunglasses (good fit for my face type)
-gold-looking, with brown leather watch
-buzz-cut because I'm thinning on the temples
-beard with 2 parts shaved: moustache and soul patch shaved; so, I guess like a very lite Wolverine?
I hope you can picture all that. Here is a picture, anyway
Replace the brown shoes with what I said above. Yeah, I know, the shoes look good but I think that they are just too much for the outfit stated above. I've noticed girls looking at my shoes. And also, the shoes are, how do you say, "needy"? I have to be careful how I walk with them to not damage them too much.
And add a black leather jacket, like I said above.

And, man, this is bugging me a little.
I'm curious. Why do you think that so few guys have on-going journals in this AA program? Maybe 5-7 are actually doing this stuff?
Are we really THAT brave?
This stuff is weird but up until now, I had only positive changes in my mindset. I feel a very good change in me. I feel that all this is hard and weird and creepy but every drill has some meaning, some purpose behind it, that you don't notice right away, but only after doing some reps. For example, the toilet day. Maybe, somehow, I was ashamed of my dick, subconsciously or whatever.

hey dude was that a picture of you? you look good if that is, really good outfit for approaching. And personally, I usually dress very casually but nice. There is a pic of me on this log of me wearing a black nike hoodie with a blue columbia windbreaker over it, I like layering like that just cuz i think it looks cool. But I'll usually wear nice T-shirts (like a maroon tommy hilfiger shirt, which is my fav shirt), the occasional buttom up, nice fitted jeans and my favorite pair of sneakers (grey adidas). I also just got these new white adidas sneakers which look great imo. Overall i really enjoy the casual but high end clothing aesthetic (also getting into streetwear). may not be the best for picking up girls but i really like it so I'm gunna rock it for now.
Why are there only a few dudes on here doing the program? I got a few theories. One is that everybody is busy with some other goal (fat loss, school, business etc.) and they just dont really care about the program. But i really think its just that the program may be to daunting of a challenge for many. I remember i first read about the program about 2 years ago, and it seemed bat shit insane. But now look at us lol. Plus, a lot of guys out there just dont have the motivation in them to beat this issue and start getting laid. I think there is a time when every guy aware of this program will suddenly get the urge inside them to JUST DO IT. Thats how it was for me, i struggled for a while in this program (didn't keep a log for the beginning part), then something clicked, and i was just able to do the program much easier without giving much of a fuck about "consequences". dont get me wrong, i still get a little anxious of course, but it's not as crippling as it was a few months ago. The hardest part of this program imo is the inital anxiety/giving a fuck that occurs with most guys in the beginning. A lot of guys eventually give up before getting over that initial hump. Thats the key, get over the initial hump, no matter how long it takes (few months or me). I've had amazing changes in mindset as well, I can recall a few definite days where I made permanent changes to my psychology. This program will have an amazing impact on our lives bro, just keep pushing.
Much love

Yea, man, that's me. You say I look good? Honestly, I think the clothes are ok, but um, I should lose some of that belly fat. I don't know why I'm not losing that weight, because everyday I walk 1.5 - 2 h doing these drils. )
I read some guy's journal, I think it was called "how I beat my AA in 5 weeks" and one of the tips for when doing these drills is to dress nice. And, in my opinion dressing nice means dressing elegantly and simple. It's easy the find that journal. It's in the "beat approach anxiety" section.
Some weird stuff happened today. Some relatives came to my house and I was thinking. "Ok. I will stay 20-30 mins to not be rude and then I can just go outside and call a friend to meet-up."
But I noticed the "grown-ups" (I'm saying like that because I have little respect for them after what I saw. I will elaborate). So, the "grown-ups"/"adults" were treating this very young girl (8 and a half years old) like they would treat me. I mean, with authority. They were telling her "do this/ don't do that/eat this"(and she clearly didn't want to) And she wasn't doing anything absurd or rude to deserve it, just not sitting down how they wanted to, being too loud etc. I felt the need to bring this up with them. I said "don't you realise you have an impact on this girl's life, telling her what to do, telling her what she should want"? etc. They are her grand-parents. Now I realise that my parents were a HUUGE influnce to me. 95% of why I suck with girls and life, in general, IS because of them. They weren't totalatarian with me in any way. But I internalized the way they behaved with eachother (mom and dad) and the way they talked, their personality. So, I took this little girl away from them and talked to her like big brother (now I'm wondering.. maybe because of today's happy birthday drill? NO, FUCK NO! It was because I don't want the same thing that happened to me, to happen to this girl). I tried to explain to her to do what she wants, to not care what other people think. I told her to not succumb to authority and to think for herself. I told her this is how leaders are born (I'm not 100% sure about this one, but it has to be true, right?) I let her poke me, make fun of me. I know she didn't mean it. I granted all her wishes. (She wanted my phone to play. I gave it. She wanted music. I went on the internet. She wanted headphones. I gave her my $200 headphones. (Borrow, of course, I shouldn't be the one to give here these. It should be her parents) Etc. If I had a child, that's how I would treat him/her. She loved me. She said she will come to my house again, with a joyful voice.
All of this I wouldn't have noticed 2 months ago. I would just assume it's normal. But what is "normal"?. If you mean "what happens most often, then yes, it's normal" But if you mean "correct" or "fair", then hell no. It's not normal to raise a kid like this. I don't think powerful women were treated like this when they were young.
Would you have done the same or just let the situation slide and not care and leave the place?

PS. I think I'm becoming a better writer )

Yea it definitely helps to dress nice like that, if you approach women wearing a walmart hoodie with a captain america symbol on it, girls wont treat you as well lol. But sometimes I dress to kill when i go out, but i usually just keep casual but nice, I'll upload an outfit sometime. But with that little girl, it seems like they were being a bit harsh. Discipline with your kids is good, but yea you cant be a dictator to them. Is she your niece or something? anyways, that was pretty cool of you to stick up for her, because you believed she wasnt being treated poorly. Cute how she seems to like you a lot now, its nice to have a little kid look up to you. With parenting, I think its just best to raise your kid in a way that lets them be happy and express themselves, but have enough discipline so they wont grow to be a stripper or crack fiend lol. I probs would have just been really nice to her like you did since she was being treated like she was. I also think my parents played a part in why I suck with women, my mom used to be kinda crazy and gave me anxiety, and my dad was kind of a pushover, awkward and bad with women im sure so I probs picked up on that stuff from him haha. I basically just self taught myself how to be less awkward, anxious and how to do better with girls, so I'm not too salty about my parents. Whats done is done right? also just eat less calories a day to lose that belly fat, its helpful to get something like my fitness pal on your phone. You already look good enough, losing that fat will take you to the next level im sure
cheers