TOPIC: My AA journal. In my opinion, IT'S FINISHED!

GJ bro. I like to make a suggestion tho. Taper down on taking 't' any other 'supplements'. U can do it without it. Tbh, the only thing stopping u is ur mind foreals.

It's tramadol. And I really feel a significant effect after 5 pills. So, 1 or 2 is just to take some the edge off. Anyway, I use it as a last resort, if I'm really struggling.
Thanks for the encouragement! The mind is the only thing that's stopping us in everything!

2 pills of tramadol, when I started day 39

Day 38. (Genuine but Skeptical)
Walk up to/pass by 10 girls and say "You're cute." and Leave.
Walk up to and stop 10 girls and say "Hey, wait a second- you're cute." and Leave.
Repeat this 2 times, you will speak to 40 girls.

Start
Got some fucking bad news. A girl was trying to hook me up with another girl. Then the 1st girl mentioned texts me that I should stop contacting that girl. Fuck! I asked her why and why isn't the 2nd girl mentioned telling me this. Fuck her for waisting my time. Actually, fuck both of them.
Did 3 or 4 reps. I told 1 girl which gave me a bad response that she's weird. And I did this 2 or 3 times even before Chris told me to "do what you want". I'm at xxxx mall. So, I fell like I can already move on to day 39. Also, the 2nd or 3rd time I repeated day 32 I was already stopping girls from walking.
Fuck. I ignored my bitch sense. Told this blonde girl sitting near the lake with her friend-girl (Now that I think back, it's very possible they were hookers) She told me to scram. I told her she's weird but she deserved worse from me. There were also 2 guys there. They looked like dirty gypsies. Maybe they were fucking them occasionally. One of the guys asked me "What's the problem?" and I think that her fat friend helped me. She said "He thought that she was someone else". I repeated this to the guy, while continuing to walk. I think this is the worst situation I was in since I started these drills.
Pff... Getting angry... I stopped an average looking girl, told her she's cute. Her response was "Hmmmph.." like "get away from me, kid". I need 2 or 3 good replies now, so I will make the eye contact and the smirk.
Hmm.. Now I don't I'm doing this right... My voice feels angry.
Ok. Now I'm just searching for good reactions. Fuck that. Moving on to day 39.

Day 39 (No More Mr. Nice Guy)
Walk up to and stop 10 girls and say "Hey, wait a second- you're cute." and Leave.
Walk up to and stop 10 girls and say "Hey, wait a second- you're cute." say your name and leave.
♥ Refer to "Do What You Want Principle" below (IMPORTANT)
Repeat this 2 times, you will speak to 40 girls.
♥ Do What You Want Principle

Start.
Ok. Listened to the audio for a little while then did 2 or 3 reps. Got bad reactions. Then listened to the audio again to the end.
Did 4 or 5 more. Suddenly got much better reactions. And I still did hot girls. Either I'm just lucky or my attitude has suddenly changed and the girls can feel it. I've prepared a comeback for the worst reaction. "Excuse me but are you a bitch? Cuz I have no other explanation for your reaction". I want the opportunity to say that. What the hell do these girls know? They have no idea how hard it is to go to hell and back and do what I do.
OOOOW.. Almost forgot. I went and got a coffee... I think I already got coffee from that fast-food shop 6 or 7 times. I asked for a cup of water along with the coffee, as usual. She said "I already know that".. Haha. I told her she's cool. She said thanks and "you're cool also".
I was drinking my coffee and listening to Chris. On the table on the right side beside me 3 girls and 1 mature woman. 1 of the girls was cute. I was thinking of going to them after I finished the coffee. But 3 guys came along. I don't know if they were scumbags (getting a lot of pussy). I never actually saw a guy at that level, ever in my life. But they seemed to me to have a douchebag attitude. But maybe not. Hard to explain. They had some muscle but they were ugly. I waited for them to leave. My heart was beating like "BOOM BOOM'" in my chest. I ignored it. I went to the cute girl. I spoke loudly so she could hear me "I know this is a little random, but you're cute. I'm.... Ciao". I left. I didn't look at the faces of the other girls/women. I really felt that the cute girl deserved to hear that from someone at least once in her lifetime.
I really need to develop that thick skin, that manlyhood. But, I don't know how fast I can change my brain. I still need experience.
Did a few more. Only attractive girls. The worst reply was "I'm not interested". Hmm.. Ok, I can take that. Somehow, like I said, I'm lucky or my attitude is better (overall vibe/non-verbal communication)
I did maybe 10 more. Got really angry with myself after listening to this "Some girl who can enjoy sex anytime she wants denies you who can't much at all and just basically just slaps you in the face and spits on you. You know, not actually doing that, but, let them fucking have it!" End quote. I copied it word for word. I asked for advice from my friend. He told me to keep pushing.
So I went back in the mall. I shook 2 girl's hands just cuz it felt natural to do so. The worst reaction was just girls continuing their walk (ignoring me). Yeah. I can allow them to do that. I just went to the same just I did the drill on a few minutes ago. I didn't recognize her. But, we played it off cool. I told her I'm trying to pick-up girls. She told me "good luck, try again on another girl". I was like "Yes!" I was a genuine smile in her eyes.
Ok, Did around 5 in xxxx mall. It's 20:00. 3 of them stopped and 1 of the 3 reached out to me for a handshake. So I shook her hand for 1 sec. That felt great. Why the hell not grab her hand?
So, after my friend told me to keep pushing, like I said, I shook hands with a cute, sexy girl and with a really tall one (maybe taller than me) and a little older than me, also. I think. That's also great.

Day 39 Repeat
Did a full lap around the mall. Maybe 10 reps. Didn't count. First 2 were weak, then I got a smile on my face and it got easy. I shook 1 girl's hand cuz she reached out to me and on 1 girl I was the one who reached out for it.
Then I called that girl which I mentioned in "Help. I have a date tomorrow". I hugged her when we met, I tried to kiss her but I just hugged her again. We talked for about 2 hours. I made the mistake of sitting in front of her.

This is from yesterday, 17 may 2016

Day 39 Repeat
Did a full lap around the mall. Maybe 10 reps. Didn't count. First 2 were weak, then I got a smile on my face and it got easy. I shook 1 girl's hand cuz she reached out to me and 1 girl I was the one who reached out for it.

Day 40 (Combining drills)
Do the drill, forget the responses.
Walk up to and stop 10 girls and say "Hey, wait a second- you're cute." say your name and leave.
(just like yesterday's 2nd drill)
Walk up to and stop 10 girls and say "Hey, wait a second- you're cute." say your name and put your hand up for a high five. Leave after you get a high-five.
♥ Refer to "Do What You Want Principle" (explained on Day 39)
Repeat this 2 times, you will speak to 40 girls.

Start. Did 2 laps in the xxxxxx mall. Got 4 high-fives from 15 girls. To get another 6 I probably have to stop another 15. Getting boring. Not many single girls around. Moving on.

Day 41 (One step forward)
Hey- you're cute, (wait a second), Leave
Hey- you're cute, Time, Leave
Hey- you're cute, Time, Directions, Leave
Hey- you're cute, Time, Directions, High-five, Leave
Hey- you're cute, Time, Directions, High-five, High-five again, Leave
Repeat this 4 times, you will speak to 20 girls.

Start.
I'm starting to understand this "decision period" but I need to do some reps to really get it. What I get is that I'm asking these questions just for me to stick around and see her in the act of making the decision. Ok.. So... I will do 2 laps around the mall. I will fire off as many questions as I can IF the girls sticks around. Exposure to the decision period.
5 reps-got 2 high-fives.
2 more reps in this mall. On the last rep I said "Ok, Last thing I gotta do. High five" She asked why. I just gave out a sigh. I said"Ok. thanks anyway".. Um.. somehow it feels easier to stop girls from walking with this drill than to do a walk-up. I wonder why.
Did a few in xxxx mall. These girls are not sticking around. I don't know why...So many unnavailable? I'm not doing anything different. Hmmm.. Nice. One cute girl with red hair returned the compliment. But she left..
I did 20 reps. Went up to a saad girl sitting on a bench. After "you're cute" she said "ok, do you have anything more to say?" I said "only this. good day".
On the last one I followed one girl. From behind I asked her to stop. At first she didn't give me good signs. But I smiled and asked time, directions, high five AND I held on to her hand for 1 sec while she was trying to get away. I didn't plan this. Of course I let her go.

Day 42 (Real stuff)
Just remember- this is like any other day.
Do the drill.
No thinking.
That's it.
Hey- you're cute, I'm [Name], Leave
Hey- you're cute, I'm [Name], Handshake, Leave
Hey- you're cute, I'm [Name], Handshake, Time, Leave
Hey- you're cute, I'm [Name], Handshake, Time, Directions, Leave
Repeat this 5 times, you will speak to 20 girls.

Start.
Did 2 reps after listening to the audio. I don't want the AA to build up. On the 2nd girl she let me go all the way. Good start. I like throwing in the "I know this is a little random but..."
This is funny. I can't wait to listen to the audio to the end. I just did a 3rd rep. Ok. That was funny. Shook a girl's hand. Asked her the time and "Do you know where..." I pointed to some place. She interrupted me "I think you already know" Me "Yea, I'm just trying to keep the conversation going. Ciao" I liked her.
I'm doing the drills but I'm wondering why do I need to ask for the time. I wanna do more aggresive stuff, soo...Ow, yea. Because I have to observe her decision period. Moving on. Ok. That's it. I did 1 more rep on a hot, tall girl. Handshake. Told her "I need to ask you something just to keep the conversation going". She said "Um.. Ok". Time, directions. She got it that I'm not serious. I left. I still feel that I'm waisting away good pussy cuz it's possible I will approach these girls in the future and I won't recognize them but they will and it will be weird and I won't have success..BUT I have to continue the program, of course. I have come sooo far...

Day 42 Repeat

Did 10 reps and got 3-4 handshakes but I'm not happy with my performance. I'm off to a very slow start. Don't know why the fuck I'm so weak today. Ok, I think I found the reason. It's because I'm introducing phisical stuff, even if it's very brief (handshake).
Did a few more. I was better. 2 stationaries. 1st had a stronger handshake than me... Now I realize-that's just weird. I need to give stronger handshakes. 2nd-she said "thx, even though I just had an implant from my dentist" we talked a few more seconds about this and I left. Now as I reflect on this... Why the hell did I not continue the converation? Even if my intention wasn't to pick her up (just doing drills) any conversation is exposure therapy, right? Good stuff. I think that I find these days difficult because I have to leave.

Day 43 Repeat
2 reps successful.
3rd rep- boring woman. She refused. Yea. Maybe you see it as childish but fuck you. Hmm...How about me being more manly about this drill?
I'm watching the birds flying near the lake.
4th rep-It was interesting. She gave me a handshake after I said "hi". Still completed the drill. Her name was strange/foreign.
Got 5 handshakes until now. Fuck this. I feel like I'm being watched. I'm going outside. I actually feel lie it's easier to make the handshake than the high-five. I feel like I'm going backwards in progress.
Ok. Done. 7 handshakes.
Edit: I felt like shit today cuz I took propanolol. I'm never taking that shit again.

Good shit man, you better not beat this program before me though. I'm gunna catch up...soon ...

@Jstone "Good shit man, you better not beat this program before me though. I'm gunna catch up...soon ..."
Haha, well, excuse me for putting in the hard work and advancing through this. I don't have many days left in which I will have so much free time (maybe 10 days).

3 pills of tramadol.
4 pills when I started Day 45. I really felt energetic when doing Day 45.

Day 44 (Eye Contact)
Unlike when you are approaching (and contrary to what I what said above), for the purposes of this drill- we only want you doing the drill on girls that return eye contact.
Make eye-contact with a girl for 3-5 seconds, smile and say "cute", Leave
Make eye-contact with a girl for 3-5 seconds, smile and say "cute, high-five" (and give her a high-five), Leave
Make eye-contact with a girl for 3-5 seconds, smile and say "cute, high-five" (and give her a high-five), Introduce yourself "I'm [Name]", Leave
Make eye-contact with a girl for 3-5 seconds, smile and say "cute, high-five" (and give her a high-five), Introduce yourself "I'm [Name]", Shake Her Hand, Leave
Challenge: Make eye-contact with a girl for 3-5 seconds, wink and say "cute, high-five" (and give her a high-five), Introduce yourself "I'm [Name]", Shake Her Hand, Leave (Danny method)
Repeat this 4 times, you will speak to 16 girls.

Start.
Did a little over 10 reps. Fairly easy. The hardest part is hunting for that eye-contact. One cute girl (group of 2) gave me a serious stare (smiling at me). I hesitated for half a second but I went from the back and I stopped them. The high-five was really loud. I was a little extatic cuz she smiled and I think that I hit her hand just a bit too rough, haha. But she's ok.
Went all the way with 1 cute girl at the entrance of xxxx mall. She was a little chubby, but still cute.
Ok, understood. It's possible they just don't see me and it's not necessary, the eye-contact. But if you're really phisical, you DO need it.
Did 1 girl which wasn't walking straight. She grabbed my high-five. I gave her a friendly advice to try and stand straight. She immediately did that and thanked me. She was cuter that she realized.
One cute red head gave me good eye contact so I went to her. Even if she was talking on the phone she let me go all the way.
One girl (group of 2) gave me eye-contact but didn't stop. She definitely heard me. I want 3 more. But a lot of girls I'm letting slip by cuz they are not looking at me.
Did 1 girl pushing a baby cart. She had a big smile. She hesitated for a second but she let me go all the way. It wasn't smooth. That's what I'm saying. I want 2 more all the way.
I'm really wondering "Is this the one?; Ok, maybe her?"
Ok. Got a high-five but not the handshake. She said she was in a hurry. I believe her. 1 more.
I avoided a chubby girl and another one which looked like my ex-girfriend. (Fuck her!).
Ok. Last one-girl talking on the phone but I went all the way. Moving on.

Day 45 (Quick Compliments on Groups)
Do these drills on groups of 2+ girls.
Walk up to a group of girls and give BOTH/ALL of them a high-five, Leave.
Walk up to a group of girls and give BOTH/ALL of them a high-five, say "You guys are cute,", Leave.
Walk up to a group of girls and give BOTH/ALL of them a high-five, say "You guys are cute,", I'm [Name], Leave.
Walk up to a group of girls and give BOTH/ALL of them a high-five, say "You guys are cute,", I'm [Name], Shake hands with at least 1 girl, Leave.
Repeat this 3 times, you will speak to 12 groups of girls.

Start.
I listened to the audio until minute 6 I believe. I heard the instructions and went straight for the 1st rep cuz I didn't want the AA to build up
1st rep. It wasn't smooth. Girl said she didn't know me. I said "yea. I know". I told them they are cute and I left.
Got so far 3 reps done. I was not smooth but I got the job done. So far none of them extended their hand for the handshake.
4th rep- I went all the way. I was listening to the audio but I saw 2 cute blonde girls sitting 5 meters away from me, facing me. The interaction was smooth. High five, told them they are cute, introduced myself, they told me their name, shook their hand, told them "Good day", they replied the same.
5th rep- one of them asked me why but she shyly extended her hand. I slapped it. Turned to the other. She said "will you be upset with me if I refuse?" I said yes. But actually I'm not. I know she's just not into it at that moment.
6th rep- wasn't smooth, but again, I got the job done. Told them they are cute, Introduced myself, told them "good day". and they told me the same. So, for this to work I have to come off friendly and with no explanation. Just "hey, high five!". "Why?". "Cuz I like to do this".
7th- un-smoothest rep yet. But I got it done. They were like children. They didn't understand what I was telling them.
8th rep- 2 cute girls. I was a genious. I stood in front of them and with a friendly attitude and a smile I held up both my hands making a stop sign. Got the high-fives. Told them they are cute. They didn't stick around so I just told them my name and to have a good day.

haha just giving you shit about that last post man, You're killing it right now. Youre almost there

Almost there? I don't really know where I'm at, exactly. I wanna approach aggresively (with phisical stuff) but I don't know how. I mean, I CAN touch girls but they will probably be creeped out and run away.haha. So, for that, I need to do some week 7 and 8 drills. BUT, I feel that I need to go on more dates (I only went on 1) to cement the basic stuff of a normal date/normal conversation. What I'm saying is that I'm in between approaching (getting numbers, going on dates) and advancing to week 7. And my time is limited. 10 days. What I wanna do in these 10 days is to get a girlfriend (a fuck-friendly one; a girl which I don't need a lot of persuasion to fuck her regularly). I will be busy next month. Ideally I will have that type of girlfriend and use that confidence gained from fucking her to do 1 or 2 hours of drills (week 7 and 8 ). My close friend told me that these drills will be a lot easier when I'm fucking a girl regularly. I will still do the drills, even with no girlfriend, but I want that confidence boost.

Edit: Who the fuck am I kidding? I can't get a girfriend that fast (10 days) from day time approaching... It's good enough if I will go on dates with her next month (June) and get phisical with her step-by-step, day-by-day..

This is from yesterday, 20. May. 2016

Day 45 continue

It's Friday, there are a lot of girls out and I would like to approach today
Start.
I had remaining 4. No "warm-up" drill. I stopped 2 girls. Got the high-five. Went all the way. Next 2 reps I got the question "why?". Ok. I have a reason "because it's fun". Stll no high-five. I left
Got the 2nd one. Got the 3rd one. Now I had only 1 rep left to succeed. I got 4 failures in a row. I went and stopped a group of 3, I put my self in front of them "Hey, high-five!". "No/why". Aw. fuck. On another failed rep I stopped 2 girls. The one I went to said "We don't know eachother." "Yea, I know". "Then why do you want..." "Cuz it's fun". She left. I turned my hand to the other girl. She said "Sorry, we don't..". She left.. She meant "we don't have fun"/"we are not that socially cool". I'm thinking. "Yea, I know, You don't fuck".
Finnaly, after 7 failed reps, I got my final 12th rep done. I've learned that if one girl does something, the other girl will just repeat what her friend did, meaning, either you get high-fives from all or you don't get anything. Moving on. Damn, it's hot today.

Day 46 Drill (Level 6 ~Milestone~)
Walk up to a girl and say-
"I know this random but I thought you were cute and wanted to say hi", Leave.
"I know this random but I thought you were cute and wanted to say hi", I'm [Name], Leave.
"I know this random but I thought you were cute and wanted to say hi", I'm [Name], Handshake, Leave.
"I know this random but I thought you were cute and wanted to say hi", I'm [Name], Handshake, So.. tell me what your up to today, Leave.
Challenge: On the handshake- hold it until she noticeably takes her hand back.
Repeat this 6 times, you will speak to 24 girls.

Start.
I got very lucky on the 2nd rep, got a girl's number and we scheduled a date. I have no idea where this will go. I will call her later tonight.
I left xxxxxx mall and went to xxxx mall cuz I was thinking that it's possible the girl which gave me her number will see me hitting on other chicks.
I got cocky. I thought my luck would continue. I didn't get any bad reactions but none of them were available. I think I did a total of 7 after the 2nd rep. It's funny how they reject me with a smile on their face. They stay in the conversation but they refuse me in the end.
Did 3 or 4 more reps. Got into a covnversation about weight loss with a chick. Because why the hell not? She was 16 years old and she clearly had some problems. Maybe she was raped or something. Anyways, I wanted her number, she said no, then I asked for her Facebook. Again, no. It would take probably 6 months to fuck her, she has some problems.
This day I feel is the basic, beginning of screening. It gets the job done of pushing out unnavailable girls. BUT, it's not enough if you wanna find out if you can fuck her fast (1 or 2 weeks). It's good enough for going on dates and, for me, it's a good place to start (going on dates).
Did around 4 more. I don't know what the hell I'm doing exactly. Am I approaching or just doing drills. I know what Chris said, but, fuck it. I like talking to girls, so I wanna stick around after doing the drill, to talk to them.
Did 4 more. Girls close to each other at a bus stop. My approaches are getting wea. I'm becoming light-headed. I think it's because of the continuous rejections. And I think this is affecting my performance and so, my results. Cuz I do have some outcome dependancy. What to do now... I have no reason to be sad. I FUCKING GOT a tel. number from just my 2nd rep, so I know that I look good. When I got that number my performance was not as good as it is now.
If I resume the drills at least I won't be sad because I don't want anything from the girl.
Ok. That's it. I can approach but I'm weak at it. I wanna be more aggresive. The girl said "thx, but you were brave" Yea? Well. I wanna fuck you! I don't wanna be brave. I should have said that. Moving on!

Day 49 Drill (Level 6)
Get used to touching from the start.
"I know this random but I thought you were cute and wanted to say hi", I'm [Name], Handshake, Leave.
"I know this random but I thought you were cute and wanted to say hi", I'm [Name], Handshake, "You have a strong handshake, maybe you should be my bodyguard.", Leave.
"I know this random but I thought you were cute and wanted to say hi", I'm [Name], Handshake, "You have a strong handshake, maybe you should be my bodyguard." SQUEEZE HER ARM, Leave
"I know this random but I thought you were cute and wanted to say hi", I'm [Name], Handshake, "You have a strong handshake, maybe you should be my bodyguard." SQUEEZE HER ARM and say "You're jacked.", Leave
Repeat this 4 times, you will speak to 20 girls.

Start.
I didn't listen to the audio because I didn't have it on my phone.
Got 2 reps so far. It's easy. But I will do a few more.
3rd rep-Getting the hang of it. 30y or-so-girl. I need to talk slower.
Did 3 more. I wanna start doing day 49. These 3 reps were from day 48. I just need to also squeeze the girl on the arm. But, I. need. to. talk. slower.
I don't have that much anxiety now. Maybe I need the anxiety to appear more natural? Naah.
Yeah, man! That's the stuff... Young girl. Nice tits. I'm almost crying. I was gentle with the voice and with her. But I grabbed her right forearm (the hand which she made the handshake) and then grabbed her left bicep. I COULD have stayed more. Fuck! I don't know what to do...
Pff... Why do you dress like that? Tits and ass hanging out and you give me that weird stare? Are you just out for attention? Bitch.
Yes! Good squeeze on the bice. It wasn't smooth but I got the job done and it was a good job. She saw through my words. She knew what was going on and she got shy and ran away. But she did have a good handshake! I love this drill!
Got the job done again. I got phisical fast. She was pulling back her right arm which I was squeezing and I was saying "come on, flex!" and groping her bicep like a weirdo, but I loved it. She was like "Ow, ow, ok, that's not necessary..."

Day 47 (Sundown)
Same shit. Nearly.
Ball so hard.
Squeeze a girl on the arm and say "you're cute.", Leave
Squeeze a girl on the arm and say "you're cute.", I'm [Chris], Leave
Squeeze a girl on the arm and say "you're cute.", I'm [Chris], Handshake, Leave
Squeeze a girl on the arm and say "you're cute.", I'm [Chris], Handshake, So tell me how your night is going., Leave
Challenge: On the handshake- hold it until she noticeaby takes her hand back.
Repeat this 5 times, you will speak to 20 girls.
Go do real approaches on girls after if you want.

Start.
2 reps done. 2nd rep talked to a chich. Didn't seem very intellingent. Short conversation. Teased her about why she is here if she has a boyfriend.
3rd rep- talked to a foreign girl. Didn't understood her at first. Went to a 4th girl. She told me she had a boyfriend. Maybe I should stop asking this?
Anyway, I went back to the 3rd girl cuz I regretted not trying to take her outside to talk to her. I'm sweating a little. At least I'm doing something, compared to these loser guys. But maybe I'm mistaken? Maybe they are not just standing around like furniture?
5th rep- She was with her husband. She told me, anyway.
6th rep- Went to a small but cute girl. Asked her if she's with someone. She said she with her friend-girl. Damn, Why did I not try to take her outside to talk to her?
I went "fuck it". "I wanna take you outside to talk to you". "Sorry, I can't do that now". Damn.
9 reps. No luck. The 9th got cold really fast. Cold body language. I left.
Pff. No luck. Went to "fuck it" mode. Tried to pull her outside. The 9th girl. No luck.
10th girl- she fucking works here. I left. No words.
Taking a break now. Relaxing. But I will go back!
11th rep-Tried the pull. Failed again. I greeted her friend-girl also.
That's what happens when you hesitate. A group of 2 girls went to their table with their friends and I couldn't go to them without getting past a barrier of guys.
3 more reps. Actually, scratch that last rep Only 2. A weird fucking guy said he's her husband but it's okay cuz they are into threesomes.I think he was fucking with me. He was getting a little too phisical but I played it off cool.
What the fuck am I doing here?
Just now I went after a girl in a group of 2 but she didn't stop.
Ok. I need some sort of plan. OR just go "fuck it" again and try to drag a girl outside. I think the easiest pray would be girls alone (no friend-girls and, at least, no friend-guys around).
So, 13 reps until now.
15 reps so far. I went to a girl from a group of 2 from before. I still tried to pull her outside.
16th rep-Went straight for the pull. No exchange of names. But I do think that I went to her before. Can't remember. Why am I here? This technique is new to me and I didn't even study it. Let's just finish the 20 reps.
17 reps-cold body language. I left. While going outside I saw a single girl. I just hugged her with no explanation. I don't know why I did that. Out of anger? Anyway, it was a weak hug. Maybe she thought I was drunk.
Now, I'm just chillin outside. Only guys here. Weird. Now I'm reflecting.. maybe if I was more like Chris I would have had more chances to take that dumb girl in the bathroom and fuck her. I'm getting depressed.
I'm really not seeing any new girls. The other ones are being groped by guys, so why would I go to them? I'm going to another club. I have a slight head-ache. Fuck me.