TOPIC: Creepy Adventures in London - Moonape's AA Journal

Day 12: Ask 16 girls time, if there's a place that sells nice candles, tell them I'm planning a candlelit dinner with my girlfriend, tell them I'm the sweetest guy ever. COMPLETE

Bit cringey in parts but I did the drills and completed in about 25 minutes. It's tempting to jump straight to last drill of the set to 'get it over with', so I'm becoming conscious of doing things in order. Some of this came across as bragging which added a little spice to proceedings. Easier to do this in nice weather, as it was today.

Most girls responded nicely to this task, though it was funny how you could see any attraction fade from their faces with this one. But what I'm liking is this experience of being vulnerable with a girl - saying things like this is inching closer to doing things that demonstrate not giving a fuck. And most girls respond well to that openness and you not caring.

Little note: Best to do drills as early in the day as you can (when girls are around) - because it puts you in a good mood usually.

Day 13:

Time, Leave (talk to very first girl you see; DONT let her slip by)
Time, Random question- Do you know anywhere that sells good wine?, Leave
Time, Random question- Do you know anywhere that sells good wine?, I got a promotion at work/Passed my test at school and I want to celebrate, Leave
Time, Random question- Do you know anywhere that sells good wine?, I got a promotion at work/Passed my test at school and I want to celebrate, What type do you recommend?, Leave
Repeat this 4 times today, you will speak to 16 girls in total.

COMPLETE

I started the day before an early meeting sharpening up with a few Day 11 drills (about 8 drills). Went fine.

Today's drills were good for me again. It's definitely a good thing to be doing drills with no breaks or days off in between. I didn't feel much anxiety and got great responses (I had extreme social anxiety in the past, so this is huge for me). The great weather we're having in London is no doubt adding to this, and I'm fully expecting this stuff to get harder when the weather is less good and girls are in more of a hurry.

I'm noticing more and more how my perspective is shifting as I do these. I am feeling more and more like I'm testing the girl, rather than it being all about me. I know that if a girl reacts in a bad way, it's really her problem, not mine. This takes the edge off. Expecting kratom in the mail soon, but I don't think I'll use it on drills. Want to finish at least first 5 weeks on my own.

I didn't get a bad/off response from anyone today, and asked some really good looking ones too.

On to day 14 to finish off week 2...

Day 14:

Give 10 girls a high five x2 (20 girls). - NOT complete (also missed out day yesterday for work - I'm falling behind on my cashflow)

Today was an interesting experiment for me. I said earlier that I wasn't going to use kratom for at least the first few weeks of my drills. My kratom arrived (surprisingly early - well done guys!) in the post today from Happy Hippo. It was too tempting and I wanted to give it a try with my drills today.

At home in the morning, I took about 2 grams of HH1, felt ok and stimulated and productive, but not amazing, so I must have added an additional 2.5 grams to make it 4.5 grams total over 1.5 hours. Probably too much for me, because my feeling good was soon replaced with a bit of anxiety, and just a feeling of weakness (like low blood sugar).

I headed out anyway because I'd missed out a day yesterday and would do what I could, even though my state sucked and I was a feeling a bit weird.

This was slow for me. I did a ton of walking, and avoided a lot of people for doing the high fives on. I was very sluggish and in a bit of a bad mood. I would say about half of the people I raised my hand to responded really well with a smile - the rest ignored me or gave me a weird, sometimes even terrified look .

Most of this was hard for me though, and it was 100% because of my mood. I just felt kind of low and paranoid, and a bit of a creeper. I also found this really hard to do around certain parts of London, where women are older and more 'corporate' - feels much easier in laid back, cooler, younger neighbourhoods.

I can see how great this exercise is in improving your mood though, because when you do connect with a cutie who responds well, it's a great feeling.

I probably approached about 35 women today (took over 2.5 hours!), and landed about 18 high fives. I plan on re-doing this drill tomorrow, when I'm hopefully in a better mood!

Good job man, I know how it feel to do the drills in a bad mood. 18/20 is still very good. Keep up the good work!

Thanks bud - appreciate that.

Day 14:

Re-do - didn't have much time today, so the plan was to do 10 high fives pretty quickly.

Managed 7 before I had to get going home in about 45 minutes. I'm making a lot of excuses to high five some girls and my mood was poor again this afternoon. I know. It sucks. I'm finding this one hard to get into. A lot of girls are sweet, but a few are quite harsh and totally rejecting me.

I'm feeling frustrated, but in a way I know this is good, because frustration always comes with pushing out of what is comfortable. I also know that being rejected in these drills holds a ton more value than a good response from a girl. Winners are the ones who can deal well with rejections and pick themselves up. That's why I'm doing this AA course. So rejections are what I'm (with resistance) looking for, and I won't beat myself up if I do get rejected. I will see them as successes.

More of these tomorrow. Hopefully I'll do day 15 as well and high five over 30 girls if time.

Moonape

Good work man. Keep pushing

thanks man - not planning on giving up any time soon

Day 14: Did about 7 high fives yesterday afternoon, pretty slowly though, to really wrap up Day 14.

Day 15:

Give 10 girls a high-five, in half the time it took you on Day 14.
Try to do it even faster or equally as fast.
Repeat this 2 times today, you will high-five 20 girls in total. COMPLETE

Oh man, what a day. I headed out into a fairly busy part of central London today. It took me about 10 minutes of walking around to psyche myself up to do this, then really struggled through. I just really hit a mental barrier with this and was working myself out of a good state more and more. After about 6 high fives and ten rejections, over an HOUR later I stopped for something to eat. I was exhausted.

I pulled myself together and did the remaining 14 in about 20 minutes, with the pace ever-quickening. It helps to be assertive in this drill and just tell girls loudly what to do. You will get rejected in this drill. Quite a lot. But that's all part of the fun.

I feel like I've really moved through a barrier here, and feeling high now.

Onward.

yep the hi5 was very long for me too, i remember i had to work on making good eye contact while slowing down my walk so that they felt more "forced" to reply to the hi5
I think the first 3 weeks are the most important part of the program, or at least it was for me
You are doing a great job, keep it going and good luck

Alrighty. Been a few days as I was visiting family outside of London. I'm on Day 7 of a 90 day personal no wank/fap/jerk and no porn (sex allowed) also. Feeling good. Make sure you guys keep me accountable on this one too if you can.

I'm using Stickk to help me stick to goals, and I can already see how POWERFUL this is. Also applying it to the AA program - definitely look into it guys. Basically I have to pay a charity that I hate $250 on August 15th if I have not completed the AA program by then (and $100 if I fail nofap). A huge incentive for me as I'm currently pretty broke (especially doing this program!).

Got straight into Day 16 today: High five 10 stationery girls x2 COMPLETE

The first set was slow, with a lot of time spent psyching myself up and getting back into the flow after some days off in the comforts of home.

The very first girl was a fine 9 sitting down with headphones in and smoking. I said I was 'collecting high fives' and wouldn't leave until she gave me a high five. She flat out refused until I had to sheepishly leave. not even a little fist bump. Hah!

Anyway, I did the first ten girls in about 50 minutes. I could have sped this right up by approaching more girls indoors, but I'm a bit anxious about doing this in quiet places. To work on! I may do a re-do of this one indoors tomorrow.

Second 10 girls (including a couple extra who were smoking) went a lot more smoothly, and was actually fun towards the end. I did this in about 25 minutes. I'm still choosing girls no doubt, and could easily speed this up if I just approached everyone sitting near each other and in groups, but that's tough, cos, like you know, people are listening and stuff.

ABCs tomorrow.

Day 17 - ABCs

1st Girl: ABCDEFG
2nd Girl: ABCDEFG, HIJKLMNOP
3rd Girl: ABCDEFG, HIJKLMNOP, QRSTUV
4th Girl: ABCDEFG, HIJKLMNOP, QRSTUV, WXY & Z!
* Challenge: Sing the ABC's over and over until the girl walks away. (not complete - will try tomorrow)
Repeat this 3 times today, you will sing to 12 girls COMPLETE

When I started the AA program, this day was one of the ones that scared the shit out of me, when I first looked over the drills. Today I didn't really have any nerves before doing this, and I managed to say my ABCs to 14 girls in 17 minutes.

I stress that I *SAID* my ABCs rather than *SINGING* them. Singing is no doubt harder, so I challenged myself by singing a full ABCs to one girl. Man that was brutal but went well.

I'm more comfortable with 'weird' than overly 'friendly' (like the high fives) - it's just my style, my humour, and this drill suited my weird, dry humour more.

Still no fapping, on day 8 now - and this has unquestioningly had a positive affect on my mood. 82 days to go... - These drills combined with exercise and nofap is having some pretty damn good consequences mood-wise.

I started an OKCupid account last night, and not much of result so far. Just the usual likes by mostly mingers.

Anyone care to take a look at my profile, here for feedback? Anything will help. Appreciate it.