TOPIC: (One of the) Oldest Loser(s) Here (Intro/AA Log/Pics)

Day 31: Reflect

I officially started the program August 2013, so I've had plenty of time to reflect. I got a kiss close, been warned by mall security, confronted by couple angry, BF's, a chick in green hair assaulted me, and everything in between. Had many days off, but repeated drills over a long period of time --"lived with it", so to speak-- until I felt truly comfortable with the particular drill. All the drills are pretty much interchangeable, except for the actual words being said. So, for example, if you nail the "do you like my shirt" drill, then you've got them all nailed, more or less. The only exception being the ABC's which was one I had a hard time with, (and repeated to make sure I nailed it), and the Arnold drill being the #1 hardest. I plan on going back to truly nail it, but I'm a little burned out from the "funny man" stuff and wanting to move on. So, I'm moving to Week 5 starting this weekend. I'm going to do my best to power through the next two weeks worth of drills, as opposed to stretching them out so long like I have.

My main obstacles to approaching are mixed groups, girls within earshot of others, and girls with guys. Also, for some reason, seeing a girl in a store, then "going in" to approach her is scary. I've tried to push myself to do that one.

If I had to sum up my progress with two examples from the past, it would be the following:

I remember a few years ago I would try to go out and "just talk to girls" per the usual "pua" advice. I recall one beautiful fall evening I spotted a cutie walking by herself down the street. She was slightly ahead of me and in a PERFECT position for me to just slightly overtake, turn to the side and open her... but I ....just....couldn't..... do it. Just the fear held me back. By contrast, the same situation today would be like nothing, I just know it.

Another time, also a few years back, I spotted a young college-age woman with a GORGEOUS ass walking out of Wal Mart. I managed to do the "pua stop" of getting in front of her, telling her I wanted to meet her, bla bla. But I was in such a state of panic I completely froze. She asked me where I was from, I got the feeling she was trying to carry the conversation since I was making it so awkward. I think she was actually giving me a chance and she kind of rolled her eyes at how retarded I was being and walked away. I was still proud of myself for putting myself on the line. I'm looking forward to doing normal approaches and see how far I've come since that time.

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Flary, been reading your experience with interest. Inspired by your progress and courage dude! Day 15 for me...