TOPIC: 2017✔ 2018✔ Simple 2019 goals

Really pissed at myself

I wasted a lot of time this weekend. I had the opportunity to work on a project that would have gotten me some cookie points at work, but I didn't. I only did like 33% instead of 100. I had a lot of time. I just wasted it. So how did it happen ?

Well, Friday evening I smoked weed and stayed late.

Saturday, I woke by 10 AM. By the time I ate I went for a walk. And it was amazing, saw some really cool spots, no regrets about that.

Now I was back home and ready to work from 4PM. And here is the kicker. I wasted my time. I did nothing that evening but relax, even though I was relaxed already. I thought "I'll do it tomorrow". Stood late again.

Sunday I woke up late. Then I realized I needed to fix some issue. Went outside, but couldn't solve the issue. Then I fucked around for 1 hour.

Then I solved some other minor issues. Then I eat.

Then I see it is 7PM. So I sit do some stuff. I managed to do something. I thought I will stay all night, but my task requires meticulous attention. And I thought I will go to sleep at 2-3 AM, but I overestimated myself. The work was too concentration intensive and now I can't do it properly cause my brain is shutting down. Fuckk !!

I had a really great plan to finish all my tasks, which I could have done. And do another small side project, which I could have maybe done.

But I did neither. All in all, only the morning of Saturday was productive with that walk and the 2 hours Sunday.

My mistakes :

- I went to sleep late
- I fucked around
- I didn't do something when it was the perfect time to do so ! Instead choosing to relax

Fucking around would not have been an issue if I just sat down Saturday at 4PM and decided to fucking work. But no, I wasted those 6 hours. Fuck

I was thinking about how to fix this. So far, here are my conclusions :

- Stop treating weekends as "relax time". From now on, if I am serious about my goals I have no weekends. I treat Saturday as just another work day
- Second, stop going to sleep late Friday
- Three, set time start for a task. For example. On Satruday I start working on my task from 3PM. That way I have a strict time to start, not "soon"

Basically, if my goal was to relax and finish some small tasks the weekend would have been ok. But no, I had big tasks. The thing was, I wasn't even tired to require a "relax" weekend. I have no excuse.

The good side of things

It wasn't a super big deal, which means the world is not falling.

It's a wake up call. I am feeling pissed which means I will be motivated to change things

I am not interested in weed and porn anymore. So I won't be touching those for a while.

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I am really, really pissed right now. It's time to get serious.

Also, I realized that I need lots of energies if I am going to do the projects I plan to do. I am at a crossroads and must examine my mental aptitudes. I need lots of sleep and after work hours are hard for me to concentrate on the projects I am doing. Girls were somehow easier to me.

I must adapt either way but I am at a hard time in my life. I might need to think of how to increase my energy / productivity.

I will reflect on my productivity and share my thoughts later.

December 2018 / January 2019

Last 2 months were merely ok, went on a vacation. Finished a project. Looking for a new one.

I wasn't super effective, but I wasn't too bad either. Honestly I will give myself a 5.5

Luckily I am slowly getting better and better and February looks like it will be very productive. Today for example I solved lots of health-related stuff, cleaned my room, worked on a personal project, updated my account, all that.

That is very good, a strong 9,5 for today. If the rest of the month goes similarly the result will be much better. I think I am coming out of a period when I felt kind of low. Had 0 interest in visiting GLL, was low-energy, no gym. Now I want to hit gym, looking for one, solving stuff. Things are going great.

Let's hope they keep that way.

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Year productivity analysis - 2018

So, I went back to my productivity for the last year. Here is a graph

The average result is 7 / 10 for the year 2018 . I feel that is accurate. Achieved a lot on big goals like getting a job and hitting on girls and visiting spots, but was slow on daily routine stuff.

Now to note some interesting patterns. I notice that I generally pick up in the early year, around February March, as December and January are kind of slow for me. Same this year. However, there is another thing to note.

In July I reached peak approaches, the month I did 120 something approaches in one day. Well, for some reason that month is marked 5,5 one of the lowest grades, how can that be ? Well, that's because in this log I measure my overall performance in all life areas, particularly small ones. So while my game goals went great, other life goals suffer. Generally I give myself lots of points if I respond to emails on time, don't forget to send a paper to the bank, fix my health, etc. In other words, ironically the more higher graded months are the ones where I did a lot of small things on time, at the expense of big goals.

I think that is a good idea, cause I don't have issues following big goals generally, but things like cleaning the room on time, not forgetting to visit a doctor and so forth are more of an issue. In this sense, it is very hard to both get a lot of approaches and not forget to send mails or write a CV. That's why slower months are actually higher graded, I had plenty of time to do all that, whereas those areas suffered when I had other goals.

For this year, I need to find a way to still be productive, regardless of my work schedule. I need to finish all those small tasks no matter what. I will say, that since I don't have that many big goals, I will be better at solving all the minor shit in my life. I need to fix that first and then focus on "easier" goals like visiting gym regularly, cooking ok, and saving money for a camera, rather than having to approach 120 girls in one day or something like that, that will disrupt my life.

So, wish me luck. I'm on it.

Yeah I also have issues with the small things. I let my email inbox get full, I put off doctor's appointments, etc.

Good luck mate.

February 2019

Good month. Finally, after my typical fall in productivity in December and January I am back.

This month I had a perfect productive trip abroad where I achieved all my goals. Besides that I have been successfully implementing my new good habits lifestyle and keeping my log on that. I definitely feel my mojo coming back.

I also achieved most minor stuff I wanted to do so that is great.

The month is a great improvement over what came before. While realistically my productivity was closer to 7.5-8. I will give myself and 8.5/10 to account for the fact that I bounced off a slower month and that I am finally taking on tasks that were hard for me to work on previously

Productive stuff this month -
made some progress on one of my projects
finally realized I really need to do one thing I settled my mind on a while back
fixed health and had a very productive foreign trip
Implemented successfully many new habits. Did not slip up on my NoFap streak (5 weeks now) as well as sugar and cigarettes.

Great month overall.

March 2019

Forgot to update this in a while. The month was the surge I needed. Finally I started to cooking right and sleeping better. It was not easy to stand back, but it is working. However in March I only started implementing the new habits, it took until April to really pick up velocity.

It's subjective and I wouldn't in other situations give it such a high ranking, but I keep thing relative, for example if I simply had normal results after a very strong drawback I would give myself more than 5 and if I had a strong month but lost momentum from last one I would give less.

Based on the momentum principle I give myself a 9/10 Finally started getting on my feet, slowly, step by step

April 2019

I continued the good trend. I laser focused on one single project. I could have done a bit more, but what I realized is that if I worked 4 hours a day on one project, the next day I could repeat the feat but I would feel very exhausted mentally. I realized my mental limits. Now, of course they will expand over time. Working 4 hours on my project after work is no big deal, if we are talking every other day. But 4 hours every single day, not there yet.

My food and diet and everything was not impressive, but decent enough. Right now I needed the results with my project. And I am very happy with it. I finished it 90% and am going to finish it 100% in May. I could have done the whole 100 in April, but that would have been too exhausting and I took it a tiny bit chill. Don't let perfect be the enemy of good.

Anyway, the results so far are good. I am very happy with the trend, while I wasn't perfect I am on the up.

Adding workout and proper dieting to my extra work activity will be mentally taxing, but it is a long game. 3 months ago I couldn't imagine going to sleep close to 11AM and not feeling like shit and getting anything done after work. Now I am doing 3 hours of focused extra work after my job. If I keep it up in a year I will be able to have good diet, hit the gym and still work 4 hours extra after work relatively easily. I am pushing my limits, and while it is not super impressive yet, it is way more impressive than what I used to be.

Anyway, while not perfect and my daily routine in regards to diet and sleep was so so, and I use porn way too much now too, I still did very good.

8.75 / 10

May 2019

I finished that one project, although would need to polish it a bit more eventually. Doing great progress on another one.

Had great advances in my career, I made some major moves, but I will need to switch tracks soon.

I could have done a bit more, so there is no way this is 10, but I can definitely give it a charitable 9, although effort wise it was closer to 8, because I didn't set too many goals and instead focused on what's important, I got a lot done in that specific area, so I feel justified in giving myself a 9. Hurray.

9 / 10

Got to keep pushing now.